The Purple Sheep & Some Chocolate Milk.

Miss you too, babe!

Peacefulness in the air!
*Meow*

It's been restless since last Wednesday 'till Merdeka Day for me. But finally today i'm able to catch up on my sleep and rejuvenate some energy. Woke up enthused for the day and actually completed my jewelery board in less than 2 hours. Plus some spring cleaning and more chocolate milk :D

The Merdeka event was quite interesting...the jam fireworks was spectacular! Dazzles of light and a precocious 5 year old--splendid I'd say : )
16.09.1963 is a date to remember!

Back to work!
c H e e r S !

Pink Prominence.

Listening to: Sorry, Blame It On Me -Akon
Feeling: sleepy + e. m. o + :) + weird

It's already mid-week. Goodness. My eyelids are heavy but my heart is restless. All the demands in the week (wth am I talking about? it's only Wednesday... -_-") seem endless. Today I felt the weird breezes of the past, present and future. I have no idea what that meant, but that's how it feels or felt. Pink appears to be the dominating color of the day. And chocolate milk was out of stock so i got strawberry instead. I really don't know where this post is leading me. I just felt i needed to type out some....stuff.
Busy isn't even enough to describe the workload i need to surpass. Stress and tensions get to me now and then but the thing is I'm enjoying what I'm doing. It's still tough of course especially when you need to grasp a whole lot of things in such a short period of time. Well when i talk about managing through the semester, i don't speak for myself when i say that i'm busy. Everyone else is. And allotting time is quite challenging. Sigh*
There's that little voice at the back of my mind i just can't seem to grip. Guess i need to catch some Zzzz's....

Hope i dream this tonight. . .

The Half Moon

Liz Phair is my loop for today. Extraordinary. I used to loop it back in a certain period of time, so playing it again today in a long time takes me way back. I would say that my sweet tooth cravings were quite satisfactory today. I wish that was good... Chocolate milk, a lollipop, and a packet of chocolate coated peanuts...and some more chocolate--how swell. Oh well. Today was my chill day. It's crazy under the covers frankly. The busyness in the week may have seemed to keep me occupied but other than that it's a choice i have made. I've said 'no' more than i can keep track of now and i rephrase that it's not as easy as it seems. Sounds easy, no? Just decline. Say, 'no'. No.
No, it's not that easy. Hasn't been. At least for me. These days i may seem cold hearted to those who do not know me. Or perhaps i have not really let in. Cold? Because i keep saying 'no, thanks'.

I am quite happy with my life right now.
If everything had to lead to complications then maybe i know better than where to be taking my next steps. It's harsh. I'm not afraid but ego doesn't count for courage. If it was meant to be, time will find its pace.

I watched a really good movie yesterday, 'The American History X'. It's an old movie but it portrays the issues of racism and aesthetic human values of family, community and country (in global terms). Catch it if you haven't already.

Somehow the imagery of giraffe prints in watercolor sends a familiar feeling of a childhood. Now this brings me back to one splendid evening in the neighbor's backyard; playtime with the kids next door seemed almost routine. It was dusk but the sun was still hovering over the vanishing point of the sea. The evening sunlight; beautiful. We were in our own worlds. On top of a small boat that was turned upside down; maybe that day we were pirates fighting a battle for sand dollars. But for one, the ray of sunlight that pierced through the branches of the old rooted seaside tree that stood like a giant oak was immaculate. It wasn't an oak. It was a giant tree. At least it was at the age of 6. It landed just on our playground haven. It felt like a blessing with patches of shades around. Like we were the heroes in our own little world. Even as pirates. We were going to save the turtles and build castles and perform jellyfish offerings to the sea. Those were the days.

Judge me, this soul that is a life too. But what are thee, if not human too?

Feeling:

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Friggin' migraine!
I need to. . .

. . .chill. . .

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It's only just beginning. I am a student animator as probably only few of you would know. And the animating part of the course has only just begun (am already in the 5th sem, wth!). Yes, well that's how it is. Before majoring i didn't think i would actually be where i am today... Little did i know then when i first enrolled in the course (other than what animation meant to me then). It's a long story... anyways, i have no regrets!
The point is, anything you choose to do be it art or medical, requires hard work and effort. So it's up to you to give it your best or otherwise.

(This was initially leading me to a longer post but i'll save that for another day!)

I'm so far behind. I'm off to do more sketches... Cheers

Quote of the day:

"Keep on going and the chances are you will stumble on something, perhaps
when you are least expecting it. I have never heard of anyone stumbling on
something sitting down."

-Charles F. Kettering

Weekend Recap!

ReUniOn. coLoRs. oDD. bOLd. jUst. waS. iS. aRe.

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(Will write a post again soon--no time! Too tired.)

UPdated!
22.O8.O7 - Recap on last weekend's post: Yeah i know--so late. Well i've been busy and too tired by the time i arrive home. Ho-ho. So anyways, last Saturday Dudu & Vivi came down to Cyberia. We planned to meet up with Farhan & Elaine cause Vivi would be flying back soon...

The four of us, Vivi, Farhan, Elaine & I have known each other since we were 7. We were primary school mates :D hee hee-* Well that was the first time in a long time that the four of us were together. So it was our 13 years reunion!
The fireworks event at Putrajaya was going on so we picked a nice spot to watch 20 minutes of psychedelic lights...

Special thanks to Dudu for being our cameraman that day! Nyahaha

(Thankies Dudu for the snaps!)

Siso Lyn, this is for you! And Zul! : )

C h e e R s !

It's the Weekend!

Ouh, it's Lulu the piglet! XD ...what's this? Neurotic??

Listening to: Sunrise -Angel City


Yes, it's the weekend! GahhhhhhHH~~~
Can't believe it's already been a month now. And the workload has already mounted...
The week has been filled with all kinds of emo outbursts. But it's thrilling in a way...and tiring!

Last night Lyn, Viv & I went out clubbing in KL It seriously has been a long time! Ha-ha. How i miss the late night rides accompanied by the roaring beats of bass. Sigh*
The dance was awesome. And the ambiance slightly nostalgic but no short of fun :D

I seriously need to get a move on work...which i am obviously procrastinating on. Rooaarrr*
But this evening seems to not permit me once again cause Vivi & Dudu are coming down for another visit! Last visit more like it... Vivi's flying home soon : (
Sigh, sigh, sigh!

OKies, that's all for now. Just some ramblings of recent events and the likes.
Until then,

C h e e r S !

Eat your veggies.

12.31 am- Good morning people. I've been feeling lethargic and queasy. The emotional whirlwind has landed on my happy plot of ground. And I can barely make sense of things seemingly simple...
A friend asks, 'have you gone lesb?' -_- The answer is, no. '...Gone cold-hearted bi***?' Maybe... It's the weather people! (Right, blame it on the weather). Well, whatever it is life goes on and so many things are happening at every second. ..I need to device a plan...

BROWSES of TODAY:

♣ A rape victim states her disbelief at the short prison term and release of her attacker. - Nearly 20 years ago she was the victim of rape at a fraternity party and it was an atrocious act done upon her. But after receiving an apology letter from her attacker following his arrest, he was released after just 6 months of serving jail time . [CLICK HERE]

Although it's been 2 decades since the committed crime I still feel unjust for the sentence of the guilty one. It certainly shouldn't be brushed aside that he owned up to his crime and he sent a letter of apology even after the decades have passed by. But still, the crime in question itself should not to be taken lightly despite taking place a very long time ago and the remorse only surfacing after.

♣ A self-described pedophile is arrested near a day care. [CLICK HERE] to watch video

I know there are worst cases out there (sickly). But it's still freaky. He's supposedly hasn't violated any law yet his behavior stems from an illness of the mind! He hasn't committed any crime--yet. Seriously, it all starts from the mind... C A U T i O N ! HELLO.

♣ [Okay, this is not supreme news but i wanted to add it in anyway :) ]- I've been watching William L. Sledd on YOUTUBE ('Ask A Gay Man'). I know it's probably 'off-limits' to some of you...but out of curiosity, heck! (<--please don't ignorantly apply this line to simply anything...) Anyway I find him an amusing character and an undeliberate charm! He actually reminds me of someone I dearly know... anyways, it's just one of the interesting tiny pieces of human character that make up the rest of the world : ) (thanks for the link vivi ^^)

♣ SUPER FOOD of the day:

Broccoli Sprouts!
[source: health.msn.com/]

Yes, we've been through this—broccoli, good. The news: Broccoli sprouts are even better. At a mere 3 days old, they contain at least 20 times as much of disease-fighting sulforaphane glucosinolate (SGS) as their elders; SGS has been shown to:

Kill tumors

The chemical triggers enzymes in the body that either kill cancer cells or keep them from growing. Just 1 ounce of sprouts has as much SGS as 1 1/4 pounds of broccoli. That'll save you lots of chewing.

Protect your heart

People who ate about a half cup a day of sprouts lowered their total cholesterol by an average of 15 points, and women in the study raised their good cholesterol by 8 points—in just 1 week, found a Japanese pilot study.

Save your sight

Exposure to UV sunlight over time may lead to an eye condition called macular degeneration, which is the number one cause of blindness in US seniors. Researchers at Johns Hopkins determined that broccoli sprouts can protect retinal cells from ultraviolet light damage.

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Okay. That's all for now. I got to get cracking...*
There were loads of news of course but this is all I can post for now. Go check out the NEWS yourself! : )

Making Sense!

A collection of moments,
Seedlings of memoirs,
I embrace the illusion of time
As I sip a cup of herbal tea.
Pondering over the state of my life;
Tea for every season
Rich and beautiful friendships
Self-treats of candies and blissful showers
Capturing the colors in everyday
Owning the beauty as well as the scars
Materializing dreams
And forever painting the canvas of life.

12.08.07
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I just gobbled down a cup of strawberry yogurt. The guilt is setting in.
I'm feeling so sleepy.

Classes felt so swift today considering the afternoon class was canceled. Reaching home early felt good. But after attempting to hit some work and failing i gave in to my nap. After my nap however i was still unable to focus on anything that needed my attention. Tried reading my novel. Tried drawing. Tried to work on an assignment. Read the bible.
-___-"
Finally decided to clear out my in-box that's accumulated with over 600 emails. Slowly i went through my mail. Thank goodness for the night swim with me house mates! Down at the pool it was a different story. But i was having fun...not to mention i needed to clear my head of whatever fuzzes that's been causing the distraction of the mind. Ho-ho. Funny...*ponders back*
Oh, and i had a pleasant surprise for dinner! A long time friend whom i haven't seen in ages came by to join us for supper :D Ha-ha. Seriously it's been a while... : )

Last Saturday as well i had a surprise visit from Vivi & Dudu. Golly.
Gave a little tour around the place that i call home-for-now, got us some popsicles, chilled by the Putrajaya bridge, and shared some spook stories for the ride back.
Hu-huu

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Drizzly Sunday.

Woo, finally.
Just finished some small assignments.
Resisted the evening nap today (well not exceeding half an hour at least).

It's been raining most of the day
A kid not more than the age of 5 stood by his balcony
just across mine from the opposite building;
Held his hand out
And literally tasted the rain.
He held it out again only longer this time
And when he was satisfied
he ran back in with his hand sticking out
To share with whomever it was
--juice from the heavens.


(Love this photograph; feels like home, a cup of warm cocoa and a comfy blanket)

1OAugustO7.

WARNING: fcuking long post.

FEELING:


My mind must be a mess. There has been a lot of pondering and contemplation. And i have no idea where to begin. Telepopmusic plays my escape--Just Breathe. Sigh*
Omg. It's a Friday...and you know what they say about Friday nights...do you?? I don't care..
I'll make me a nice warm cup of earl grey after this (damnit i only have one darjeeling tea bag left!) and snuggle with my Spilling Open book...

The days have been willingly pleasant and strange. The days have been good. with leaks of subtle drama and thrills. There were a lot of deep convos on life and everyday norm; inspirations on living a dream; harsh realities we deal with everyday; and the many many wanderings that so often catch us off guard.

Earlier i couldn't help but overhear a conversation from a table beside talking about religion...it sounded so intriguing that i wanted to just pull a chair out and join in....the matter of the fact is i wasn't even sure what the argument was. still it sounded pretty interesting to share the point of view of another person.
Crazy this world, no?
One person insists that his way is right; 1 million people tell you their's is the right way; 1 million right ways all differing from each other.
.....
College has been quite exciting. I'm learning more and more about my course and it seems to be fueling a foundation for passion. It's not merely the workload. It's putting in your best efforts despite the boundaries put on you; or just making the most with what little you've been given; just something about making things work towards your advantage.

I realized how important it is to count your blessings. Seriously. There's always something to be grateful about in a day (it's tad bit too overrated from me to mention those little things..but you'll know what i mean..).

It's not a perfect world, yes. We're not perfect, that's why we're human. Spirits on a human journey some say....humans on a spiritual journey to others. (Pardon me for i'm on train of random thoughts now)...
Some of the little dramas (or dramatically big) that happen in our daily lives, although we may constantly be flinging our arms out in eXtreme gestures describing such events, complaining perhaps, whining perhaps, venting out perhaps, we secretly do yearn for such occurs...
I'm not saying all the dramas...or course there are always those unwanted ones...

But these things big or small are what gives us a chance to express ourselves. We may be despising the subject matter of what we're complaining about but the whole point of it is just to be heard. To express. Then again you could get teeny-tiny matters probably not even worth bringing up (those things people go on about 24/7 you don't really want to hear about...)
Back to being grateful for blessings big or small, we humans tend to (or need to!) exaggerate our selves just to make our life seem bigger...or our existence matter. For one, we're constantly finding a reason for our existence and for all other Big Questions about life and what not.
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Sometimes it feels hard to express myself knowing that in another part of the world war is happening, poverty, and every rising global issue. Lets not go too far out of Malaysia and you can already find such occurs; its a global thing and it happens every part of the world. On the ground that i walk on daily it's enough to find the harsh realities of the world we live in.
It's scary. It's intriguing. It's insane. It's beautiful. It's sickening. It's everything that it is.

How can i be happy when at this moment a child is being abused and is hanging by the thread of his life? How can i exaggerate about the beauty of a cup of tea when someone is dying of thirst?
How can i complain that what i have is not enough when someone else has absolutely nothing to begin with? Not even the knowledge of the ideals of love we so often strive to obtain nor the meaning of rich friendships. How can i turn the left cheek from the very ideals i am fighting for when my deeds clash with my words? How can i judge that person based on a mass while i claim that i am against war?
How. how. why. why. why. how.

Goodness. a reason for everything. an understanding i may never grasp. a reason...what is it..or what are they....? what. what. what. why. how.
Even i can't give you an answer for all those questions. If you put aside your ego you might be able to recognize it as questions of your own. maybe not.
It's life. the way of life. So we make the most of what we already have. And as humans we will always want more.

Subconsciously every now and then we go against what we preach. It's scary. Even i admit to it. But it's a fact. And however we may see it, in whatever light; whether we are doing it obviously or not, subconsciously or not, controversially or otherwise; it happens.

I feel living an unexpressed life aches. Hence even the smallest awed beauty is expressed. Whether it matters to you or not, it matters to me.
It's a matter of how we express ourselves. and what perhaps.

I don't mean to go against what i may claim to be fighting for. But merely being depressed because of a part of the world that is sick and doomed doesn't really help either. Life goes on and the illusion of time that exists in forever now moments is only moving forward. We all have a part to play.
Even just one can make a difference. And that's entirely up to you.
......
*This week...
Quite a number of people have scoliosis and don't realize it. I have it. maybe that's why i have a keen eye for it.
In the news: Schoolyard Slayings, Newark, New Jersey.
Health news: 1O Symptoms Not To Ignore

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Forgive me for any offending views or statements. We're diverse human beings. We live in a world defined by borders. Variety! Unique! Weird! Strange! Different! Same! Same difference!?

Jet leg from Jupiter

♥headaches be gone!!

♥Sabrina Ward Harrison rox!

♥Just Breath is my loop...

♥Reformatted my lappy finally! Yay :D

♥Vanilla lime ice-cream today was bliss

♥Busy busy week!

♥...oh, Happy Bra Day! ;D lolx

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I lost all that i wanted to put down. Seriously the days have been quite filled and i haven't had a moment to re-frame. Hee. Well last weekend was tiring but fun :D

Went to the PC fair to get some laptop equipment and reformatted as well that day : ) Next day just chilled with Lulu, Ray and Bble...watched some movies...hee ;D

And this week classes are starting to get busy with assignments (and it's only Monday!). But i'm looking forward to it...hohoh*

Will post some pictures up soon,

until then

C h e e r S !

It's a stRaNge and achiNgLy beaUtiFul world...

Dedicated to Lulu,



(click to enlarge)

I meant to write a post here. but i'm beat and it's bedtime.
Anyways, this is just an experiment with the tablet and colors.
I'll repost the art when i have time to work on it again.
; )

Hope you like it Luu.

C h e e r S !