Goodbye For Now.

Time: 1.52 am
Feeling:
Listening to: Be Without You -Mary J Blige
Food: Cheese na'an

Few more hours before flying back home...huhuhu...was done with college last monday...woohoO :) But this week itself has been hectic-weird... -_-" seriously...i wished my flight was the next day *Tuesday morning*....huh...but oh well it's already saturday...yay ^_^
Just wanna forget about some things for a while...been nothing but bothers of hopeless worries...unneccesary anxiety...bleahz...
I have loads to look forward to this holiday :D woohooO
November comeS November goes. . .

Remember November...

Huh?! October is over~~~~
What's been up....I have 3 subjects left...tomorrow is my presentation for illustration! after tomorrow there will be one more big presentation left...huhu...
This week itself has been exhausting...submissions...working on the journal...getting design approval...badminton!....haven't been going for training plus i've mostly been sitting working infront of the computer or desk so my stamina has gone way way down...but yesterday was a great workout ^u^ well there's supposed to be this international friendly match against Korea...but the game date is still not confirmed so i'm still not sure whether i'll be able to play for that...anyway i need the exercise...good way to de-stress!
Huh....can't wait for it all to be over and fly back but surely there'll be something i'll miss...huhu...

One More!

Mayz got Tyra (-_-)?
me want too...so me paste on me blog...

You Decide

Which Victoria's Secret Angel are you?
Alessandra Ambrosio You are sexy, exciting, and can be daring!
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Sometimes it's hard to breakaway from your comfort zone. standing out in the bare unknown you might feel unable to face what lies in the darkness. often you withdraw back to your safe zone. still in your heart you know that you cannot stay there forever. and as many times as you try but feel the fear in your heart; as hard as you try not to give in; you try and you try, and slowly with each new dawn you feel the strength within your being; you start to see how much you've been missing; you see how it is possible to move on and begin anew; you start to realize that it really is okay to accept change and that with every end there is a chance for a new begining...one thing to always remember, never ever give up hope.

CuT.

I just cut my own hair ! (just the front la..) omg...i finally did it...hahahahahaha...was so damn bored i swear i heard the scissors call me...at least this time it turned out aLRIGHT! my so called 'fringe'... woohooO

+Vanilla Aimz.

I'm craving cHeesecake right now. oh. And vaniLLa miLkshake. Me likey mucho mucho!

I fell from a shooting star
I tried to fly back to space
The wind caught me
They breezed me back to earth...
And messed with my hair!
Nice try aimz

**I love my golden slippers! Of course they're not as goLd as they used to be...that's cause i love 'em so much i wear them almOst everyday! and because of that their lifespan may be soon... :(

October Baby!

Woohooo...!! I can't believe it's been months...i'm not an avid blogger i admit... unlike some of my friends whom i enjoy the pleasure of reading their day-to-day rants just for the laughs but seriously they're damn cool... (hails*)
Well anyway life; amazing. Love-it. The tears and heart-ache? they come with the laughters and smiles...but it's not that bad if you learn to appreciate the little things in everyday
Today.
I was on my way out from my block to help with a friend's shooting assignment when this oh-so adorable cat meow-ed at me and just trailed behind me all the way outta da building. I attempted to take a snap of it and well i did get oNe good one

Hee hee~
I didn't realize however when i was in the midst of snapping this kitty there was a guy standing up front who didn't move a muscle at all--he was just static. Then when i did look at him he was still like that -_-" After a few seconds he smiled and said 'Heh, nice cat.'
I just smiled and nodded. Then he said 'Oh, you like cats.' I managed to let out a small 'Yea' and a weak smile as i was turning away. Then the cat followed behind me and he said 'Oh, it's following you!'
I had such a fake smile...the vibes was just not going right...
Then i realized the cat wasn't the only thing following me behind...so was he...
I sped up just in time to hear his last words. 'Cat..heh.'
Then i just walked without looking back.

**The shooting was funny. I was so lame -_-". It was so hOt. i was getting bored.

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you..
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,?doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can' t have them
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened

LiVe + LoVe + LaUgH

Yeeaaaahhh~~~~~~

Life is too precious to let slip by... Despite all the chaos happening in the world and the insanity, beauty still exists in the lil' appreciated moments in life... the people who love you unconditionally.. good food.. ice-cream on a bad day... a warm smile.. a kind word.. a look of concern from a loved one.. a cool breeze.. laughter... good company.. good music... love...

hee hee~

...even those without a roof over their heads can appreciate the one meal that gets them through another day... what about y o u?

Lalala~ s m i L e =D

If iT doN't kiLL yOu, iT'll hUrT yOu bAd

Huh... i can't believe i'm still running. Had no sleep at all last night. No yawns at all. Just a poker face. Underneath this smile...
What happens when you find out that everything you ever knew was a lie? Or maybe something new was brought up to contradict whatever it is you believed in the first place? Denied denied. More stories (lies?). False allegations. Twisted stories. Clashed facts (lies?). Next thing you know, the table's turned. Blame shifting. Denials. Ego. Yada yada....
***For a moment there i thought i was distrought and disoriented. Highly. But briefly. Held back ego. Resorted to music. Next thing i knew, i was a singing anger-ball. Guess you just call it self-expression.

Aargh.your bloody laughter is a sign of playing innocent.dang

Friday ChiLLz

omg. i'm so not able to spill my intentioned rants rite now; am by the pool being savaged by mosquitos...aaaaahhhhh
the internet connection was down so decided to have a walk outside and use wireless.... by the pool...bad place to be..wrong time for blood donation... sei

Spoke Too Soon...

As the day reaches the end, my heart sinks back into the darkness...
I am one with the day veiled by the after math of sun set..
Lousy week. Letting myself down just to not let others down. Helpless.
They said they'll be here but all i see is an empty space.

Looking Behind Clouds of Grey

Huhuhu. its been sad and depressing these few days. loneliness in the sky. in the falling leaves. echoing voices in the four walls. finally able to dig outta that black hole. huhuhu. been keepin' busy even though there wasn't anything that i felt like doing. now i'm just craving for vanilla milkshake (again) and apple pie ^p^

*hahaha. Mayz u crazeee =P *

*misss my sleeping pill*

Today it'a all about pampering.hee hee.i need a break! if anybody asks, i'm behind that cloud of grey~ =) Time to put on my sunnies~

Awoken

"..say ma' name say ma' name, when no one is around u, say baby i love u, if u ain't runnin' games,
say ma' name say ma' name, u actin' kindda shaddy, ain't callin' me baby, why da' sudden change.."

just awoke.. been waitin'.. been takin' in all da crap dats been left at ma front door.. breezes.. hang ups.. the hand.. oh please *rolls eyes* ..so i wonder..in between hours of waiting..where..what...will u.. would u... that's it...i'm just pissed at this immobility.. did u know? ..just drownin' in da words.. the melody.. but the sky's not blue.. where did my sky go? ..she left.. she gave up.. he's runnin away..maybe he calls it movin' on... but there was nuthin really put on the table in da first place.. guesses...assumptions.. well, they've all bailed anyway... at a distance just enough to watch this falter... trippin' into a black hole...

Slipping Away...

25thApril06
I'm still watching from a distance
There u go
Out of site
Hints
It's always been about that
I don't wanna assume anymore
But then again, i can't help it
When u turn away
U always leave something behind
It's weird sometimes
One moment you're there
and so am i
Another, it's all gone
Nothing
It never was
But then at times
It jumps back to where we might have left it
Something
Whatever it is or was
Today
We jumped there
But we held anger towards each other
Felt in moments
Understood silence
Somehow..

Belle Sparkle is No More

7thMarch06

i could have opened a mini pet zoo when i was young
But part of my pet keeping was to learn responsibility
They'd have hated me then
But i've learned my lesson
And my love for animals is still unshattered
Now i can't even care for a plant
Water can give life or take it away
In this matter
'twas metaphorical, too much of a good thing can be bad
I'm sorry Belle Sparkle
May you rest in peace.

Once Upon A Friend

21stFeb06
Still struggling inside?
U know it's not worth it
But u can't help it
The friend that u thought u knew all along
Is now unlike anything u'd ever imagine before
You shared so many
The laughter, tears, pain and joy, a window, the secrets...
All through time that felt like one big still moment
You thought it could stay that way forever
Because t'was such a beautiful part of your life
So real so real
You were there for each other
Through tyring times
You grew up together
You knew there were flaws but it didn't matter
Because you believed
And isn't that what love's all about?
Regardless of the human imperfections
The soul stays true...
But all that has changed now

Now
You can't even look at me without forcing a smile
Seems you'd rather not look at all
And from behind
I feel your laughter echoing to my spine
You look at me from sideways now
Not at me
No more
Just understood silence
With unanswered questions hanging by the tips of it
That is how it feels now in your presence
Not a single care in your eyes

You wonder how once long ago
This existence was a warm bright flame
That lighted the corners of your life
What was then is but a cold unforgiving winter
You wish yourself far from this pitiful feeling
But how can you deny one's existence
Who is but on the same ground as you
Look back look back
Once
And never return
Only the forgiving heart is open

"..i ranted this stuff out after i had a talk with a dear friend who was sorta in a friendship crisis..the words just came.."

She

She
She would not admit defeat
Not when there was still hope
She would not let herself down
Or leave herself behind
Because she knows
It is but she that will be left
When the whole world bails
She will not leave to ruins
All the hope she so believed in
The dreams carved out of untouchable clouds
Maybe it's not for he
But it's who she is
She--