Once Upon A Friend

21stFeb06
Still struggling inside?
U know it's not worth it
But u can't help it
The friend that u thought u knew all along
Is now unlike anything u'd ever imagine before
You shared so many
The laughter, tears, pain and joy, a window, the secrets...
All through time that felt like one big still moment
You thought it could stay that way forever
Because t'was such a beautiful part of your life
So real so real
You were there for each other
Through tyring times
You grew up together
You knew there were flaws but it didn't matter
Because you believed
And isn't that what love's all about?
Regardless of the human imperfections
The soul stays true...
But all that has changed now

Now
You can't even look at me without forcing a smile
Seems you'd rather not look at all
And from behind
I feel your laughter echoing to my spine
You look at me from sideways now
Not at me
No more
Just understood silence
With unanswered questions hanging by the tips of it
That is how it feels now in your presence
Not a single care in your eyes

You wonder how once long ago
This existence was a warm bright flame
That lighted the corners of your life
What was then is but a cold unforgiving winter
You wish yourself far from this pitiful feeling
But how can you deny one's existence
Who is but on the same ground as you
Look back look back
Once
And never return
Only the forgiving heart is open

"..i ranted this stuff out after i had a talk with a dear friend who was sorta in a friendship crisis..the words just came.."