+May. [honestly]

Playing: Be Without You -Mary J. Blige
Feeling: .....

It's already May. . .
April has left....and when it came i had anticipated some things i did not want to...but i had to. and it came. and when it did it was all and hard. everything came out that day. to the point there was nothing left to feel nor to look back.
ironically however lots of things started to happen. old ties. new ties.
I personally would like to thank Bow, Mayz, Luu & Sisters (Lyn & Viv)....
T h a n k y o u .
Thank you for being there and being such true friends....
Things aren't always as the way you expect them to be. i reckon a few of you know what i'm talking about and if you don't it doesn't matter.

Some would have thought this to be easy or at least it's wiped out from me as far as my smiles can go. please, i'd do what i can to make myself happy. and i think it's safe to say everyone does want to be happy (maybe a matter of how, why & what...) It does not mean i am a heartless shell who ignores pain. acknowledging it and living through it does not require you to carry gloom and doom everywhere you go and show it. there are times...there are moments...
Please know that i appreciate each thoughtful gesture. yet i am not at a point to go any further than my heart intends to for the moment.
it had been a long and interesting ride the past year. giving and learning to let go. exhausting yes. but hey, for what it's worth... and you can only move forward.
It's been a bit confusing this past few days. i thought it was okay. but i've had guilty notions. i do not mean to. then again, this is all i can say for now.
Well this is a bit personal but then again it's my blog and i want to vent out. so.

+No offense.