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Happy New Year 2OO8 !

Hello peeps! Hope y'all had a good end for the year 2OO7 : )

Life throws challenges at the very things you strive to change or attain

Sometimes we get caught up at 'arriving' we forget the 'journey'

Heartache and tears? Sure.
But nothing beats the light when you've known darkness

And with all the things we strive to attain, some things we may never know its worth 'till you've nothing left but to contemplate the hollowness that surrounds you

But really, let's not wait 'till ends wit to realize the true jewels in your life (!)

We could all do with a little whimsy and spontaneity in our life.... : )

Here's a final curtain for the year 2OO7...enjoy!

xOxOxOxO Dedicated to my beloveds xOxOxOxO

c h e e r S !

Bits and Pieces.

ReCreating perspective + meaning.



27.11.O7 - My muse is back. And she's brought back more than inspiration--I'm a knot of bubbling euphoria awaiting to materialize. Grand.
Creating+crafting+inventing.



Beauty...
It's in everyday
The little things
We see but never notice...

In the rugged edges of dreams awaiting
Lies a still faith
Unbound and untouchable
by men's ignorant hearts,
Who only seek refuge
in the value of solidity.

Picking Up Stardust.

The days they only exist in moments we call 'now'
Yesterday was a dream, tomorrow is a vision
And yet the beauty of memories and dreams lives on.

I wish understanding were enough.
These moments are fragile
I wish i could hold onto them long enough
But tomorrow becomes today
And later becomes now
Yesterday is a distant; a memory.

Overlooking the view from raised grounds
I tap into a moment lost in time
Feelings came rushing in as though they never left
And it felt like just yesterday;
Embraced in good times
And security you wished never let go of you.

One by one, i cut these ties that bind me
Before it is too late
Before it becomes a part of me;
A liberating pain.

It's so easy to say things;
To tell someone what they need to do or should;
To say that this is right and that is wrong;
To condemn; to justify; to find fault;
But what comes next is more than breathing into the air;
Carve ye' thy words out of air?
Or breath ye' forgotten dust into the wind?

New faces fill the days as the moon slowly reveals itself by night
Early dawn when life is still,
The moonlight is a whisper in the breeze;
An eerie longing of a door that leads to a past;
And the shadows cast are nostalgic;
Secrets lie behind those shadows.

Life has been a misunderstood beau;
My muse has gone on vacation
And i stand alone with what's left of her nurturing.
She's smiling from an unmeasured distance
As i tremble for the words
And attempt to bridge meanings;
To look for inspiration in the foggy mirror of dawn;
Or dreams that have seeped into my pillow covers at night;
Or poems that are left by the stain of lip gloss on my early morning milk mug;
I search and I search,
And I am weary.
I'm still searching.

-25.09.07-

Eat your veggies.

12.31 am- Good morning people. I've been feeling lethargic and queasy. The emotional whirlwind has landed on my happy plot of ground. And I can barely make sense of things seemingly simple...
A friend asks, 'have you gone lesb?' -_- The answer is, no. '...Gone cold-hearted bi***?' Maybe... It's the weather people! (Right, blame it on the weather). Well, whatever it is life goes on and so many things are happening at every second. ..I need to device a plan...

BROWSES of TODAY:

♣ A rape victim states her disbelief at the short prison term and release of her attacker. - Nearly 20 years ago she was the victim of rape at a fraternity party and it was an atrocious act done upon her. But after receiving an apology letter from her attacker following his arrest, he was released after just 6 months of serving jail time . [CLICK HERE]

Although it's been 2 decades since the committed crime I still feel unjust for the sentence of the guilty one. It certainly shouldn't be brushed aside that he owned up to his crime and he sent a letter of apology even after the decades have passed by. But still, the crime in question itself should not to be taken lightly despite taking place a very long time ago and the remorse only surfacing after.

♣ A self-described pedophile is arrested near a day care. [CLICK HERE] to watch video

I know there are worst cases out there (sickly). But it's still freaky. He's supposedly hasn't violated any law yet his behavior stems from an illness of the mind! He hasn't committed any crime--yet. Seriously, it all starts from the mind... C A U T i O N ! HELLO.

♣ [Okay, this is not supreme news but i wanted to add it in anyway :) ]- I've been watching William L. Sledd on YOUTUBE ('Ask A Gay Man'). I know it's probably 'off-limits' to some of you...but out of curiosity, heck! (<--please don't ignorantly apply this line to simply anything...) Anyway I find him an amusing character and an undeliberate charm! He actually reminds me of someone I dearly know... anyways, it's just one of the interesting tiny pieces of human character that make up the rest of the world : ) (thanks for the link vivi ^^)

♣ SUPER FOOD of the day:

Broccoli Sprouts!
[source: health.msn.com/]

Yes, we've been through this—broccoli, good. The news: Broccoli sprouts are even better. At a mere 3 days old, they contain at least 20 times as much of disease-fighting sulforaphane glucosinolate (SGS) as their elders; SGS has been shown to:

Kill tumors

The chemical triggers enzymes in the body that either kill cancer cells or keep them from growing. Just 1 ounce of sprouts has as much SGS as 1 1/4 pounds of broccoli. That'll save you lots of chewing.

Protect your heart

People who ate about a half cup a day of sprouts lowered their total cholesterol by an average of 15 points, and women in the study raised their good cholesterol by 8 points—in just 1 week, found a Japanese pilot study.

Save your sight

Exposure to UV sunlight over time may lead to an eye condition called macular degeneration, which is the number one cause of blindness in US seniors. Researchers at Johns Hopkins determined that broccoli sprouts can protect retinal cells from ultraviolet light damage.

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Okay. That's all for now. I got to get cracking...*
There were loads of news of course but this is all I can post for now. Go check out the NEWS yourself! : )

1OAugustO7.

WARNING: fcuking long post.

FEELING:


My mind must be a mess. There has been a lot of pondering and contemplation. And i have no idea where to begin. Telepopmusic plays my escape--Just Breathe. Sigh*
Omg. It's a Friday...and you know what they say about Friday nights...do you?? I don't care..
I'll make me a nice warm cup of earl grey after this (damnit i only have one darjeeling tea bag left!) and snuggle with my Spilling Open book...

The days have been willingly pleasant and strange. The days have been good. with leaks of subtle drama and thrills. There were a lot of deep convos on life and everyday norm; inspirations on living a dream; harsh realities we deal with everyday; and the many many wanderings that so often catch us off guard.

Earlier i couldn't help but overhear a conversation from a table beside talking about religion...it sounded so intriguing that i wanted to just pull a chair out and join in....the matter of the fact is i wasn't even sure what the argument was. still it sounded pretty interesting to share the point of view of another person.
Crazy this world, no?
One person insists that his way is right; 1 million people tell you their's is the right way; 1 million right ways all differing from each other.
.....
College has been quite exciting. I'm learning more and more about my course and it seems to be fueling a foundation for passion. It's not merely the workload. It's putting in your best efforts despite the boundaries put on you; or just making the most with what little you've been given; just something about making things work towards your advantage.

I realized how important it is to count your blessings. Seriously. There's always something to be grateful about in a day (it's tad bit too overrated from me to mention those little things..but you'll know what i mean..).

It's not a perfect world, yes. We're not perfect, that's why we're human. Spirits on a human journey some say....humans on a spiritual journey to others. (Pardon me for i'm on train of random thoughts now)...
Some of the little dramas (or dramatically big) that happen in our daily lives, although we may constantly be flinging our arms out in eXtreme gestures describing such events, complaining perhaps, whining perhaps, venting out perhaps, we secretly do yearn for such occurs...
I'm not saying all the dramas...or course there are always those unwanted ones...

But these things big or small are what gives us a chance to express ourselves. We may be despising the subject matter of what we're complaining about but the whole point of it is just to be heard. To express. Then again you could get teeny-tiny matters probably not even worth bringing up (those things people go on about 24/7 you don't really want to hear about...)
Back to being grateful for blessings big or small, we humans tend to (or need to!) exaggerate our selves just to make our life seem bigger...or our existence matter. For one, we're constantly finding a reason for our existence and for all other Big Questions about life and what not.
....
Sometimes it feels hard to express myself knowing that in another part of the world war is happening, poverty, and every rising global issue. Lets not go too far out of Malaysia and you can already find such occurs; its a global thing and it happens every part of the world. On the ground that i walk on daily it's enough to find the harsh realities of the world we live in.
It's scary. It's intriguing. It's insane. It's beautiful. It's sickening. It's everything that it is.

How can i be happy when at this moment a child is being abused and is hanging by the thread of his life? How can i exaggerate about the beauty of a cup of tea when someone is dying of thirst?
How can i complain that what i have is not enough when someone else has absolutely nothing to begin with? Not even the knowledge of the ideals of love we so often strive to obtain nor the meaning of rich friendships. How can i turn the left cheek from the very ideals i am fighting for when my deeds clash with my words? How can i judge that person based on a mass while i claim that i am against war?
How. how. why. why. why. how.

Goodness. a reason for everything. an understanding i may never grasp. a reason...what is it..or what are they....? what. what. what. why. how.
Even i can't give you an answer for all those questions. If you put aside your ego you might be able to recognize it as questions of your own. maybe not.
It's life. the way of life. So we make the most of what we already have. And as humans we will always want more.

Subconsciously every now and then we go against what we preach. It's scary. Even i admit to it. But it's a fact. And however we may see it, in whatever light; whether we are doing it obviously or not, subconsciously or not, controversially or otherwise; it happens.

I feel living an unexpressed life aches. Hence even the smallest awed beauty is expressed. Whether it matters to you or not, it matters to me.
It's a matter of how we express ourselves. and what perhaps.

I don't mean to go against what i may claim to be fighting for. But merely being depressed because of a part of the world that is sick and doomed doesn't really help either. Life goes on and the illusion of time that exists in forever now moments is only moving forward. We all have a part to play.
Even just one can make a difference. And that's entirely up to you.
......
*This week...
Quite a number of people have scoliosis and don't realize it. I have it. maybe that's why i have a keen eye for it.
In the news: Schoolyard Slayings, Newark, New Jersey.
Health news: 1O Symptoms Not To Ignore

......
Forgive me for any offending views or statements. We're diverse human beings. We live in a world defined by borders. Variety! Unique! Weird! Strange! Different! Same! Same difference!?

Cest la Vie!

WarNiNg: Emo-ness! Philosophical! Patriotic! (erm...) Tired!

A quicky post before i retire for the night
I am so loving my nails right now btw : )

(left nails)(right nails)

*meow*

Today was fun! fun! FUN!
Met Lulu just on my way to the bus ; ) Then met Mayzy and Chewy at Midvalley (Yippie!) Love you guys : )
Ha-ha. What can i say... : )
Anyways it was also great to meet up with my college mates again yesterday.

Deep convos. bridging hearts. smiles. laughter. reunion. : )
Oh, the humanity!
Hee hee~
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Change happens whether you want them to or not
Some changes have to happen
Well since some changes are unwanted but unavoidable,
I decided to make the changes I wanted and could.
If it's for the better, why not?
: )

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A page from a book of inspiration--

From time to time,
we all feel a little disappointed
with our lives and perhaps the people in them.
We start questioning our daily routines;
a sense of loneliness touches our hearts,
and we wonder what life is really all about.
When you reach this point in your life,
take a moment and forget about
what has gone before...
and start believing in
what you really want today.
It is by redirecting our lives that we can keep
ourselves headed in the right direction,
and it is by standing still that
we allow time to just pass us by.
It is looking at a sunrise or a sunset
and appreciating its beauty for ourselves
that enables us to understand
some of life's mysteries.
No two people see the world the same way,
nor do they think or feel
or even experience things around them
with the same exact perception.
Don't try to mold yourself or your life
into a design that isn't you;
rather, paint the days
with all the colors you so desire
and enjoy the artwork that you alone
can create.
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C h e e r S !

to be continued...

Poetry In Motion

Song of the day: Sunrise -Angel City

Here are a couple of pictures from Yahoo! News
There were loads of 'em but these were among my favorites

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FLOATING STATEMENT Children run through 6 thousands balloons outside Brazil's national congress in Brasilia, on Tuesday, June 5th. The World Wildlife Fund Brazil placed the balloons in protest against the country's daily emission of six million tons of greenhouse gasses.

JURMALA SUNSET : Swans fly over the Baltic sea during a sunset in Jurmala, near Riga.(AFP/Janek Skarzynski)

SAUDI SUN : The sun sets in the Saudi city of Hail, around 700 kms north of downtown Riyadh.(AFP/Hassan Ammar)

Fireworks explode over Moscow river during a fireworks contest, late June 1, 2007. REUTERS/Denis Sinyakov (RUSSIA)


DREAM CATCHER : Danielle Arico (L) and Steven Marshall perform the scene "Dream Catcher" during a dress rehearsal of the dance company Momix at the Joyce Theater in New York.(AFP/Timothy A. Clary)

Ending the day : Fishermen return from the sea as the sun sets, ending the day in Jimbaran, on Bali island.(AFP/Sonny Tumbelaka)

I feel so far away from a lot of things
Yet still attached to the things i wish be far from me
I have raised my guards up
Not afraid
Maybe still hurting silently
Can you hurt unconsciously?
. . . . . . .
I'm supposed to fly back home today
But it's not gonna happen;
Not today.