+beLLe sparkLe

ATTENTION!

2009-08-20T21:14:00.000-07:00

Hello, peeps! I know this blog has been dead for a while...long while.... Anyways that new blog is up and running :D Please feel free to drop by:

[click me]

Have a nice day =]

p/s: This blog will still be running :)

xOxO

Back To School.

2009-02-26T05:19:00.000-08:00

R a i n.B o w

It's been a week since I've been meaning to post an update. I finally get the time. Well classes have begun and this sem it's gonna be all about 3D! (like 90%?) Yeah. Anyway. I'm soo excited and scared at the same time! I'm still unwrapping this subject layer by layer and hopefully I'll love it even more as I learn more and more about it...YOSH!

It seems so many things have been going on lately. Or I'm just squeezing in too many things into my schedule... Hmm. Well I'm glad for one that I managed to have a mini-holiday with my bestie Virgillia a.k.a Bow a.k.a Vivi a.k.a Banana.... Heee : ) Bow spent two days over and we had a blast! We haven't been able to catch up since we were back at KK but those two days made up for it.... Hee-hee. We did all the usual (girly) stuff.... pedicures...manicures....movie marathons... :D Well we go way beyond those stuff (especially when we've known each other since we were 7!). Anyways here are some shots (through my broken little camera) of those few days. Ho~Hum : )

Oh, please feel free to drop by my deviantART page too. I've only posted a few works so far though.

CheeRs!

2009-02-15T05:07:00.000-08:00

Hope y'all had a good one =]

15.02.09- Yippee-- Happy bumble-bee! Pleasant moments and a blue sky filled with birds. Such is my day today. Neurotic winds do blow from time to time. But then again, they blow on any weather good or bad. Well today we had a lovely lunch by the balcony... It was a really small balcony (typical) but still it was a nice change of scenery and the four of us managed to sit comfortably for a meal. He-he. Golly-ness. My thoughts are on a treadmill. Guess I won't be ranting much tonight. Anyways I hope everyone had a lovely valentines yesterday! I know I did =] Btw, valentines isn't all about being with that one significant other.... It's about love alright, and what is love if it can't be shared with the rest of the world.... XD

CheeRs ! ♡

Not So Dead Yet.

2009-02-12T08:50:00.000-08:00

ZEST!

The revival of BelleSparkle

: )

I know, I know.... Bukan da mati ka? Nop. =p

I'm back to blogging *fingers-crossed* and hopefully I'll be able to keep up with posts and what not. Oh, and that new blog? Well lets just say it's out there, just that I decided to keep this one rolling...

So apart from the M.I.A in practically the online world for the past year things are up and about in almost all spheres and I'm whoop-tee-doop-tee happ'ee =D I deliberately shut some doors for a while and after that much needed time of hibernation and isolation the honey tastes sweeter and the grass seems greener these days. Life is so. I know, I don't make sense. What the heck. This is a blog after all. Expression is the name of the game.

CheeRs!

(will update this post again soon!)

RE:cap.

2008-07-02T01:08:00.000-07:00

2nd July'O8-- Such a hot and sunny day : ) I'm currently addicted to Snapple's Cranberry Raspberry Juice Drink--yum! I've been slugging since the beginning of the week due to muscle cramps from the tournament...oh, which reminds me of some good news:

We won 1st place for the doubles event !!! :D

It was great.... I played 6 games (which explains the body aches) and by the time we got to the final game i was a deflated tyre....seriously. But still, we managed to hold the fort =] Hee~
Well i've just been yet again indulging in food and relaxing me self as i've some spring cleaning in line to do before i leave! Here are some photos from earlier this year.....time flies!
*sighs*

Babe, I miss you!
Thanks for being there...*hugs*

And last but not least, to my dear friend Lucy, I miss you!
Take care and all the best to you...*hugs* :')

Somewhere between Space and Earth...

2008-06-25T00:54:00.000-07:00

Since my last line I've been been binging on anything on the menu with 'lamb' or 'laham' (in Arabic). Bliss! : )

Hello.

So it seems i have put blogging in the back seat; with random posts on the rare occasion.
Life is a beau spelled W-E-i-R-D in colorful playful letters. Sometimes you see it in the morning mirror looking back at you; sometimes in someone you've always seen around but never imagined how much your fates would be entwined; sometimes in an old friend you've grown apart from; sometimes in just that tiny moment you get to sit down and catch your breath.

Yes, so much has happened where i left the gaps of unwritten days.

Philosophies and beliefs put the test. How at one point we do it all for ourselves, really.
I shall leave that for another day perhaps.

As of now i'm busy preparing for a badminton tournament which will be held this weekend. I'm excited alright but worried about the fact that i haven't really played for months now (!)
So many other things will be going on this weekend and time is precious as it has always been.
The practice i joined a few days ago were great. Clearly i've gotten a bit rusty but i hope to give it all that i've got still. Hee~

Anyways, i'll post another update soon as i've an hour to get ready for practice!
Ta

Falling From A Shooting Star...

2008-05-04T03:08:00.000-07:00

It's been a while.

I wish i could say i've been looking down from a star. But i've been grounded. And landed hard have i on this fragile plot of land. Stripped of every dose of sanity and sense. Blinded by words and emotions that turn to dust in the sunlight. Taunted by paradoxes and contradictions.

The beats they transcend upon me like a current. I am taken into refuge; the alms of an invisible yet unbending force. I look up from the ground once again. And i remember.

Whichever way we choose to look at things, it should never stunt us from truly being and embracing.

I'm craving for some lamb chop.

Next Stop, Jupiter...

2008-02-20T06:57:00.000-08:00

: )

I'm tired of the same lines, I think it's time to change the channel.
I think I almost gave up blogging. So much for that, here I am now. Hello.
Oh, it's exactly 2 weeks since beginning life at the 6th floor pool view; desert oil palm plantation for a landscape; and the orange couch a place to retire.
I see that some things will never be the same, ever; I bow and let the river take its course. I'm glad I found my bubbling euphoria again though. And love is a wonder like the grin of a Cheshire Cat.
I've been burying my head behind my National Geographic mags--can't get enough. My salvation is in the pages of a World History book. I know, I'm a bore. But I can't help it; my muse is dressed as a historian professor of some sort chanting the fields of anthropology, ancient civilization, geography, .....

"I smell rain". : )

I must say it's been depressing reading the news everyday. But it only serves to remind us the fractured reality of life. I sense a little humor though in life's little triviality.

Sha shrieks at a little tyrant redefining the meaning of boredom, "You, demon!"

Cheers mate! The pyramids of Giza await me =]

I need your vote!

2008-02-14T20:09:00.000-08:00

Hey, peeps! I need your support...

Rate my poem, Go here

Thankies =]

JADED CUPID --Sketched a year ago...i've posted this on my blog before...reminiscent!

2008-02-12T05:05:00.000-08:00

It got me too.

Bubbly.

2008-01-11T03:27:00.000-08:00

7.27 pm - Another day : ) I passed my theory test for driving today--49/50! Ha-ha. I know it's just theory but at least I've surpassed the hassle of revising for the test which btw is a waste of time and money if i had to repeat!--2 things I can barely spare right now. So.

Work wasn't so bad today. The critique session helped a lot. Even though I had to re-do most of the work it was still good feedback. I'm getting gewd. Hee hee. Plus i'm starting to enjoy it more now that i know where i'm headed and which areas it is that i need to improve on.

I was zested from the test until now. Usually after work i'll head to the internet cafe which is family grounds while i wait for my ride home. Dinner was fun. The usual chuckle buddy, Girl, always lightens the load. I just love a dose of laughter :D And i can never go short with my beloveds : )

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I haven't really been able to post an update other than my personal day-to-day rants.But hopefully soon I will--so keep checking! ; )

Lovely Lace.

2008-01-09T04:00:00.000-08:00

8.O1 pm - Golly, what a day it has been : ) It's already more than a week into the new year and the days are anxious heartbeats. I've started working since a few days ago at my aunt's bridal shop. But i mostly deal with photo/video editing, photo album compilation, etc--not exactly what you might have had in mind since it's a bridal shop. But that's part of the package anyway.

*Gosh I'm so hating this sticky-keys-keyboard!* Anyway it's been good so far. Of course I'm not that hyped about having my a** glued to the chair all day and staring into the monitor for hours. But it's bearable for a month i guess. Besides I get to learn quite a lot from the whole experience. Oh, and what's a bridal shop without bridal dresses?? That's one of the things that keeps me alive working there--I'm surrounded by gorgeous wonderiffic dresses!

Every now and then when I get up to get the blood going again in my legs I'll start inspecting each one of the dresses. Sparkling beads, sensuous silk, satin and glazing velvet (!), sexy lace (damn, all my beloved fabrics!) and skilled motifs--the blood of inspiration just rushes through my veins *sigh* : )

I wish I could spill more but I'm running out of time (I'm at a cyber cafe btw). The upcoming posts will probably be writings mostly. No purpose really but to vent out and express, express!

Cheers!

Huzza Huzza

2008-01-01T19:05:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year 2OO8 !

Hello peeps! Hope y'all had a good end for the year 2OO7 : )

Life throws challenges at the very things you strive to change or attain

Sometimes we get caught up at 'arriving' we forget the 'journey'

Heartache and tears? Sure.
But nothing beats the light when you've known darkness

And with all the things we strive to attain, some things we may never know its worth 'till you've nothing left but to contemplate the hollowness that surrounds you

But really, let's not wait 'till ends wit to realize the true jewels in your life (!)

We could all do with a little whimsy and spontaneity in our life.... : )

Here's a final curtain for the year 2OO7...enjoy!

xOxOxOxO Dedicated to my beloveds xOxOxOxO

c h e e r S !

Flawed Perfection.

2007-12-06T16:40:00.000-08:00

Here are some sketches of recent and of past. Surprisingly I'm still busy buzzing here and there. Shall post an update soon. In the mean time, enjoy : )

--- 2OO5 sketches ---

c h e e r S !

Bits and Pieces.

2007-11-26T08:49:00.000-08:00

ReCreating perspective + meaning.

27.11.O7 - My muse is back. And she's brought back more than inspiration--I'm a knot of bubbling euphoria awaiting to materialize. Grand.
Creating+crafting+inventing.

Beauty...
It's in everyday
The little things
We see but never notice...

In the rugged edges of dreams awaiting
Lies a still faith
Unbound and untouchable
by men's ignorant hearts,
Who only seek refuge
in the value of solidity.

The Cherry Shades Revival.

2007-11-21T04:11:00.001-08:00

. . . . . . . .I'm B A C K !

...urm, yeah....so i've heard the 'Update, update!' nagging voices....urm, yeah....

It's been such a long time since i've touched this blog! I could barely call my latest posts updates. Anyways i'm hoping this is. *wink wink*

This semester has been helluva hectic (like any other) but i quite enjoyed it. More work but i learned so much more as well...exploring new territories....mm...nice. College wise it's been good. Life overall--superb. Ha-ha, that's exaggerated. But with all its ups and downs the canvas of my life could not be more colorful than it already is =) Grateful i am.

What's sunshine without rain, huh?

And then you have those days where it pours when it rains;

Days when you're blissfully happy;

Days when you wished you were invisible;

Days when it starts to rain just when you put your over-sized shades on;

Days when you spill coffee on the one favorite blouse you decided to wear that day;

And after all that

Days where you just indulge in a perfectly warm cup of Darjeeling,
The sun is just right and you stare into the sky with your bumble-bee shades,
The breeze sweeps gently across your face
And you feel beautiful with all the imperfections as they are
Knowing that you are human too

Pick up that brush and paint your life to your design~*
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I've got a couple of pictures of the past months' sparkles but unfortunately they're not in my hands--yet. So the next highlight would be non other than
C h r i s t m a s ! *can you hear the bells??*
These are just some of the pics i caught on the net that caught my gaze at first sight....
the lights. the ambience. the nostalgia. the warmth. the hugging splendor of familiarity. the forgotten blessings. ...can you feel me??

...more to come...
c h e e r S !

The Return of Cherry Cubes...

2007-11-12T16:30:00.000-08:00

Picking Up Stardust.

2007-09-25T06:16:00.001-07:00

The days they only exist in moments we call 'now'
Yesterday was a dream, tomorrow is a vision
And yet the beauty of memories and dreams lives on.

I wish understanding were enough.
These moments are fragile
I wish i could hold onto them long enough
But tomorrow becomes today
And later becomes now
Yesterday is a distant; a memory.

Overlooking the view from raised grounds
I tap into a moment lost in time
Feelings came rushing in as though they never left
And it felt like just yesterday;
Embraced in good times
And security you wished never let go of you.

One by one, i cut these ties that bind me
Before it is too late
Before it becomes a part of me;
A liberating pain.

It's so easy to say things;
To tell someone what they need to do or should;
To say that this is right and that is wrong;
To condemn; to justify; to find fault;
But what comes next is more than breathing into the air;
Carve ye' thy words out of air?
Or breath ye' forgotten dust into the wind?

New faces fill the days as the moon slowly reveals itself by night
Early dawn when life is still,
The moonlight is a whisper in the breeze;
An eerie longing of a door that leads to a past;
And the shadows cast are nostalgic;
Secrets lie behind those shadows.

Life has been a misunderstood beau;
My muse has gone on vacation
And i stand alone with what's left of her nurturing.
She's smiling from an unmeasured distance
As i tremble for the words
And attempt to bridge meanings;
To look for inspiration in the foggy mirror of dawn;
Or dreams that have seeped into my pillow covers at night;
Or poems that are left by the stain of lip gloss on my early morning milk mug;
I search and I search,
And I am weary.
I'm still searching.

-25.09.07-

Magical Dusk.

2007-09-18T04:07:00.000-07:00

Moments of sound and music;
Of space and time; Of emotions;
Of events and memories;

Dusk sets in
The piano keys tap into a memory
The breeze takes me way back
And the glory of the sky is a yearning for hidden tears

Forbidden love;
Decisions made by the way of life;
Inevitable but unavoidable.
The search for sanity and the flow of meaning;
But neither is the result of an attempt.

It does not make sense does it?

I am merely attempting to express myself. The gloom and doom that i feel. The joy and sparkles that i breathe. The smell of memory and yearning. The sensation of desire. The many pondering of daily life. Yes, the inevitable and the unavoidable. The reasons and consequences.

. . . . . . .

It hurts, it hurts
Emotional pain that feels so real
That binds your breath
And aches your chest
Got you gasping for sense and reason
Like your breath you can't seem to find.

Its a wonder this bliss
Of gratefulness and unuttered joy
A senseless euphoria;
You hold onto like your breath
Taking in every delight
Like an infinite moment.

A strange and achingly beautiful part of being human

Sweet Cravings + Reality.

2007-09-15T19:47:00.001-07:00

. . . . . . .

Life has been swiftly moving forward.
Having no classes on Wednesdays makes it feel like the week is shorter.
I am closely attached to papers and my blue pencil. Not one day goes by without the word 'Trailer'. The enthusiasm is a candle burning in the dark 'till dawn.
And falling sick only reminds me that I'm human too.

Towards the end of the week I guess my body just had enough; it's been screaming 'rest!' ever since i caught the flu more so;
So the last two days I've been able to fall asleep without waking 'till the next day.
Can't describe more; it only paints a picture of an over-done workaholic.
-___-
But the week has been pleasant in some ways. Subtle thrills as I may call them; adding colors to my canvas. It's funny how some things you thought you left far behind can still catch up to you; perhaps something you've let go of.

Have a good weekend, peepz!

C h e e r S !

Criss Cross Rain.

2007-09-10T08:58:00.000-07:00

An unfinished feeling...

10.09.07- Unwell and annoyed. Useless cravings of sweet things; I steal a bite of chocolate but taste nothing. The hush-hush excitement burning anxiety. September breezes and freak wind storms. I have so much and yet nothing to say. I want to be filled with that feeling again. It's so far.

This is one of the many unpublished drafts and incomplete post...heck, bon apatite*

. . . . . . . . . .

There stood Will and Desire;
In a world where dreams are made destinations and pleasure unlimited stops;
The thought that is cast out loud belongs to you, belongs to me.

This could go on forever. If only it made sense. Be it one phrase or a whole page. There I stood in all of bleakness. For some I would see colors and the unbent will to be different and stand out from a crowd. For others it is a reality of black and white, for good and evil, for sorrow and joy, for suffering and pain, for happiness at the cost of another's misery. But for one person's thoughts echoing out loud; be you the audience, or be you in my moccasins.
It was unplanned for. But at a moment like this I was not to pass a night out on the road. With company I delighted and the ambiance I sought. The speed started accelerating and being at the back seat somehow I felt fear. The power of unchallenged swift beckons fault. I could only pray that the wheel was still sane. But I could not deny that I too felt the angst of the driver that night. Reaching our desired stop; anticipation and observation. And walking with my guard up and feeling all eyes averted towards the moving crowd of four, each step was taken in poise. It was a moment of blending into the scene and of insecurity. It was a moment of stepping into the third person's watch and judging. It was a moment of seeking temporary certainty. If I were to sit and surround myself with conscious walls I would perhaps say that the atmosphere was superficially disgusting. But to be part of the crowd and assert your own existence whether the world around you is shut or whether you stand on a stage is an opposing stance. To be or not to be?
The beats just filled my veins. But consciousness brings me back like awaking from a dream where you dreamt of waking up but you're only dreaming of waking up; and it goes on and on.

. . . . . . . . . . .

Chipped Polish + Fever.

2007-09-08T21:22:00.000-07:00

Golly. I think i've had enough of house music for now; the beats are still ringing in my head. My weekend has been infused with the cold. I caught the flu and was down with a fever yesterday. I felt i wasted most of the day and even then i couldn't be spared with proper rest due to the nightmares about work that need be done! Sheesh. But i felt much better after some herbal tea prior to dinner. And seriously after, I was on a working high -__-" Worked on some drawings 'till 4am....zzzz...
And surprisingly i woke up quite refreshed this morning and ready to tackle on more work! I just finished one assignment a while ago so i was thinking of watching a movie for a break =p

Tee-hee~*

My blogging juice is just at a low drive...but i still felt like spilling some bits.

Cupcake, anyone?

Cherry Blossom Blisters Under Velvet Skies.

2007-09-06T08:37:00.000-07:00

Never get wasted on a weekday--especially when there's class in the morning.
I was practically moving on a high throughout the whole day with just one hour of sleep.

Class was interesting today;
Kaifan falling in love at first sight;
Kun-kun telling me that milkshake is milk that you just shake--kau kau -__-;
John trying to be funny;
Nishii playing reverse psychology...;
and me thinking they've all gone insane.

I Love You-ness.

2007-09-04T00:02:00.000-07:00

Listening to: Beautiful World -Coldplay
Feeling: Strange

Now playing: Trouble -Coldplay

The air is humid. It's been raining the past few days. Still, I wake up fresh and dress to embrace the cold. I think i over-use the word 'weird'. I love it secretly for it's the one word i can think of to describe my bubbling euphoria of curiosity and excitement. But note that such events that occur aren't always good; yet the thrill of the unknown and unfamiliar is a beautiful weird thing at an angle. Honestly, it's only a matter of time before i turn to my expressions.

There has been a lot of tiny pleasant moments that we could simply overlook, but i guess part of being neurotic and highly sensitive makes me aware of such things (ha-ha--why couldn't i just say 'being grateful?'). It's just a matter of how you deal with things and how you make of it. There has been frustrations and distance i cannot comprehend. But at some point it seems only fair to suggest balance. Haven't you had days were things were just too good for some time it just felt dull? Well not that i would be complaining; after a lot of drama you would enjoy the stillness. But there is only so much sunshine you could take before you start to burn and wished for drops of cooling rain. Well same goes for the matter the other way around; when life seems bleak and your sole mission is to get by the days just one at a time, a carefree sunny day is only in a prayer.

Personally, it's been weird. An addictive kind of weird. Its like walking side by side with uncertainty for so long it would be peculiar not to have that dose of uncertainty. Just enough to aid the certainties, no? I mean hey, it would be a bit dull if you were certain of everything, no?

There are two things certain in life (apart from death & taxes); uncertainty & change.

Currently my concerns are divided between my work and my social circle . Time, time, time. If i said yes to every single demand that would leave me weary and practically lifeless even through all the 'busyness'. But what i choose to say 'yes' or '' to is another matter. Decide on what's more important--of course, if only it were that easy. What if you had 20 important people in your life and you had to fit each one into your schedule? Maybe if you had unlimited resources...perhaps possible. But there's only so much time, money, and energy that always seem to be an excuse for inconveniences . Lalalala~*

On another page:

'Our movie trailer should be rated-T.'
'T?'
'Yah, teen-rated. T-E-E-N.'
'Oh?'
'T-rated for small violence, small politics, small s**.'

C h e e r S

2007-09-03T07:28:00.000-07:00

When rain tastes like vanilla and the sun shines sugar rays

Say Ok is such an emo song right now

It's a crazy high on work; i feel mischievous

I can't believe the last lines i spoke to a friend before...

The Purple Sheep & Some Chocolate Milk.

2007-08-31T23:34:00.000-07:00

Miss you too, babe!

Peacefulness in the air!
*Meow*

It's been restless since last Wednesday 'till Merdeka Day for me. But finally today i'm able to catch up on my sleep and rejuvenate some energy. Woke up enthused for the day and actually completed my jewelery board in less than 2 hours. Plus some spring cleaning and more chocolate milk :D

The Merdeka event was quite interesting...the ~~jam~~ fireworks was spectacular! Dazzles of light and a precocious 5 year old--splendid I'd say : )
16.09.1963 is a date to remember!

Back to work!
c H e e r S !

Pink Prominence.

2007-08-28T10:38:00.000-07:00

Listening to: Sorry, Blame It On Me -Akon
Feeling: sleepy + e. m. o + :) + weird

It's already mid-week. Goodness. My eyelids are heavy but my heart is restless. All the demands in the week (wth am I talking about? it's only Wednesday... -_-") seem endless. Today I felt the weird breezes of the past, present and future. I have no idea what that meant, but that's how it feels or felt. Pink appears to be the dominating color of the day. And chocolate milk was out of stock so i got strawberry instead. I really don't know where this post is leading me. I just felt i needed to type out some....stuff.
Busy isn't even enough to describe the workload i need to surpass. Stress and tensions get to me now and then but the thing is I'm enjoying what I'm doing. It's still tough of course especially when you need to grasp a whole lot of things in such a short period of time. Well when i talk about managing through the semester, i don't speak for myself when i say that i'm busy. Everyone else is. And allotting time is quite challenging. Sigh*
There's that little voice at the back of my mind i just can't seem to grip. Guess i need to catch some Zzzz's....

Hope i dream this tonight. . .

The Half Moon

2007-08-25T04:54:00.000-07:00

Liz Phair is my loop for today. Extraordinary. I used to loop it back in a certain period of time, so playing it again today in a long time takes me way back. I would say that my sweet tooth cravings were quite satisfactory today. I wish that was good... Chocolate milk, a lollipop, and a packet of chocolate coated peanuts...and some more chocolate--how swell. Oh well. Today was my chill day. It's crazy under the covers frankly. The busyness in the week may have seemed to keep me occupied but other than that it's a choice i have made. I've said 'no' more than i can keep track of now and i rephrase that it's not as easy as it seems. Sounds easy, no? Just decline. Say, 'no'. No.
No, it's not that easy. Hasn't been. At least for me. These days i may seem cold hearted to those who do not know me. Or perhaps i have not really let in. Cold? Because i keep saying 'no, thanks'.

I am quite happy with my life right now.
If everything had to lead to complications then maybe i know better than where to be taking my next steps. It's harsh. I'm not afraid but ego doesn't count for courage. If it was meant to be, time will find its pace.

I watched a really good movie yesterday, 'The American History X'. It's an old movie but it portrays the issues of racism and aesthetic human values of family, community and country (in global terms). Catch it if you haven't already.

Somehow the imagery of giraffe prints in watercolor sends a familiar feeling of a childhood. Now this brings me back to one splendid evening in the neighbor's backyard; playtime with the kids next door seemed almost routine. It was dusk but the sun was still hovering over the vanishing point of the sea. The evening sunlight; beautiful. We were in our own worlds. On top of a small boat that was turned upside down; maybe that day we were pirates fighting a battle for sand dollars. But for one, the ray of sunlight that pierced through the branches of the old rooted seaside tree that stood like a giant oak was immaculate. It wasn't an oak. It was a giant tree. At least it was at the age of 6. It landed just on our playground haven. It felt like a blessing with patches of shades around. Like we were the heroes in our own little world. Even as pirates. We were going to save the turtles and build castles and perform jellyfish offerings to the sea. Those were the days.

Judge me, this soul that is a life too. But what are thee, if not human too?

2007-08-23T06:26:00.000-07:00

Feeling:

...............

Friggin' migraine!
I need to. . .

. . .chill. . .

............
It's only just beginning. I am a student animator as probably only few of you would know. And the animating part of the course has only just begun (am already in the 5th sem, wth!). Yes, well that's how it is. Before majoring i didn't think i would actually be where i am today... Little did i know then when i first enrolled in the course (other than what animation meant to me then). It's a long story... anyways, i have no regrets!
The point is, anything you choose to do be it art or medical, requires hard work and effort. So it's up to you to give it your best or otherwise.

(This was initially leading me to a longer post but i'll save that for another day!)

I'm so far behind. I'm off to do more sketches... Cheers

Quote of the day:

"Keep on going and the chances are you will stumble on something, perhaps
when you are least expecting it. I have never heard of anyone stumbling on
something sitting down."

-Charles F. Kettering

Weekend Recap!

2007-08-20T03:24:00.000-07:00

ReUniOn. coLoRs. oDD. bOLd. jUst.  waS. iS. aRe.

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~~(Will write a post again soon--no time! Too tired.)~~

UPdated!
22.O8.O7 - Recap on last weekend's post: Yeah i know--so late. Well i've been busy and too tired by the time i arrive home. Ho-ho. So anyways, last Saturday Dudu & Vivi came down to Cyberia. We planned to meet up with Farhan & Elaine cause Vivi would be flying back soon...

The four of us, Vivi, Farhan, Elaine & I have known each other since we were 7. We were primary school mates :D hee hee-* Well that was the first time in a long time that the four of us were together. So it was our 13 years reunion!
The fireworks event at Putrajaya was going on so we picked a nice spot to watch 20 minutes of psychedelic lights...

Special thanks to Dudu for being our cameraman that day! Nyahaha

(Thankies Dudu for the snaps!)

Siso Lyn, this is for you! And Zul! : )

C h e e R s !

It's the Weekend!

2007-08-18T02:28:00.001-07:00

Ouh, it's Lulu the piglet! XD ...what's this? Neurotic??

Listening to: Sunrise -Angel City

Yes, it's the weekend! GahhhhhhHH~~~
Can't believe it's already been a month now. And the workload has already mounted...
The week has been filled with all kinds of emo outbursts. But it's thrilling in a way...and tiring!

Last night Lyn, Viv & I went out clubbing in KL It seriously has been a long time! Ha-ha. How i miss the late night rides accompanied by the roaring beats of bass. Sigh*
The dance was awesome. And the ambiance slightly nostalgic but no short of fun :D

I seriously need to get a move on work...which i am obviously procrastinating on. Rooaarrr*
But this evening seems to not permit me once again cause Vivi & Dudu are coming down for another visit! Last visit more like it... Vivi's flying home soon : (
Sigh, sigh, sigh!

OKies, that's all for now. Just some ramblings of recent events and the likes.
Until then,

C h e e r S !

Eat your veggies.

2007-08-14T09:29:00.001-07:00

12.31 am- Good morning people. I've been feeling lethargic and queasy. The emotional whirlwind has landed on my happy plot of ground. And I can barely make sense of things seemingly simple...
A friend asks, 'have you gone lesb?' -_- The answer is, no. '...Gone cold-hearted bi***?' Maybe... It's the weather people! (Right, blame it on the weather). Well, whatever it is life goes on and so many things are happening at every second. ..I need to device a plan...

BROWSES of TODAY:

♣ A rape victim states her disbelief at the short prison term and release of her attacker. - Nearly 20 years ago she was the victim of rape at a fraternity party and it was an atrocious act done upon her. But after receiving an apology letter from her attacker following his arrest, he was released after just 6 months of serving jail time . [CLICK HERE]

Although it's been 2 decades since the committed crime I still feel unjust for the sentence of the guilty one. It certainly shouldn't be brushed aside that he owned up to his crime and he sent a letter of apology even after the decades have passed by. But still, the crime in question itself should not to be taken lightly despite taking place a very long time ago and the remorse only surfacing after.

♣ A self-described pedophile is arrested near a day care. [CLICK HERE] to watch video

I know there are worst cases out there (sickly). But it's still freaky. He's supposedly hasn't violated any law yet his behavior stems from an illness of the mind! He hasn't committed any crime--yet. Seriously, it all starts from the mind... C A U T i O N ! HELLO.

♣ [Okay, this is not supreme news but i wanted to add it in anyway :) ]- I've been watching William L. Sledd on YOUTUBE ('Ask A Gay Man'). I know it's probably 'off-limits' to some of you...but out of curiosity, heck! (<--please don't ignorantly apply this line to simply anything...) Anyway I find him an amusing character and an undeliberate charm! He actually reminds me of someone I dearly know... anyways, it's just one of the interesting tiny pieces of human character that make up the rest of the world : ) (thanks for the link vivi ^^)

♣ SUPER FOOD of the day:

Broccoli Sprouts!
[source: health.msn.com/]

Yes, we've been through this—broccoli, good. The news: Broccoli sprouts are even better. At a mere 3 days old, they contain at least 20 times as much of disease-fighting sulforaphane glucosinolate (SGS) as their elders; SGS has been shown to:

Kill tumors

The chemical triggers enzymes in the body that either kill cancer cells or keep them from growing. Just 1 ounce of sprouts has as much SGS as 1 1/4 pounds of broccoli. That'll save you lots of chewing.

Protect your heart

People who ate about a half cup a day of sprouts lowered their total cholesterol by an average of 15 points, and women in the study raised their good cholesterol by 8 points—in just 1 week, found a Japanese pilot study.

Save your sight

Exposure to UV sunlight over time may lead to an eye condition called macular degeneration, which is the number one cause of blindness in US seniors. Researchers at Johns Hopkins determined that broccoli sprouts can protect retinal cells from ultraviolet light damage.

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Okay. That's all for now. I got to get cracking...*
There were loads of news of course but this is all I can post for now. Go check out the NEWS yourself! : )

Making Sense!

2007-08-13T10:33:00.000-07:00

A collection of moments,
Seedlings of memoirs,
I embrace the illusion of time
As I sip a cup of herbal tea.
Pondering over the state of my life;
Tea for every season
Rich and beautiful friendships
Self-treats of candies and blissful showers
Capturing the colors in everyday
Owning the beauty as well as the scars
Materializing dreams
And forever painting the canvas of life.

12.08.07
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I just gobbled down a cup of strawberry yogurt. The guilt is setting in.
I'm feeling so sleepy.

Classes felt so swift today considering the afternoon class was canceled. Reaching home early felt good. But after attempting to hit some work and failing i gave in to my nap. After my nap however i was still unable to focus on anything that needed my attention. Tried reading my novel. Tried drawing. Tried to work on an assignment. Read the bible.
-___-"
Finally decided to clear out my in-box that's accumulated with over 600 emails. Slowly i went through my mail. Thank goodness for the night swim with me house mates! Down at the pool it was a different story. But i was having fun...not to mention i needed to clear my head of whatever fuzzes that's been causing the distraction of the mind. Ho-ho. Funny...*ponders back*
Oh, and i had a pleasant surprise for dinner! A long time friend whom i haven't seen in ages came by to join us for supper :D Ha-ha. Seriously it's been a while... : )

Last Saturday as well i had a surprise visit from Vivi & Dudu. Golly.
Gave a little tour around the place that i call home-for-now, got us some popsicles, chilled by the Putrajaya bridge, and shared some spook stories for the ride back.
Hu-huu

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Drizzly Sunday.

2007-08-12T05:17:00.000-07:00

Woo, finally.
Just finished some small assignments.
Resisted the evening nap today (well not exceeding half an hour at least).

It's been raining most of the day
A kid not more than the age of 5 stood by his balcony
just across mine from the opposite building;
Held his hand out
And literally tasted the rain.
He held it out again only longer this time
And when he was satisfied
he ran back in with his hand sticking out
To share with whomever it was
--juice from the heavens.

(Love this photograph; feels like home, a cup of warm cocoa and a comfy blanket)

1OAugustO7.

2007-08-10T08:07:00.000-07:00

WARNING: fcuking long post.

FEELING:

My mind must be a mess. There has been a lot of pondering and contemplation. And i have no idea where to begin. Telepopmusic plays my escape--Just Breathe. Sigh*
Omg. It's a Friday...and you know what they say about Friday nights...do you?? I don't care..
I'll make me a nice warm cup of earl grey after this (damnit i only have one darjeeling tea bag left!) and snuggle with my Spilling Open book...

The days have been willingly pleasant and strange. The days have been good. with leaks of subtle drama and thrills. There were a lot of deep convos on life and everyday norm; inspirations on living a dream; harsh realities we deal with everyday; and the many many wanderings that so often catch us off guard.

Earlier i couldn't help but overhear a conversation from a table beside talking about religion...it sounded so intriguing that i wanted to just pull a chair out and join in....the matter of the fact is i wasn't even sure what the argument was. still it sounded pretty interesting to share the point of view of another person.
Crazy this world, no?
One person insists that his way is right; 1 million people tell you their's is the right way; 1 million right ways all differing from each other.
.....
College has been quite exciting. I'm learning more and more about my course and it seems to be fueling a foundation for passion. It's not merely the workload. It's putting in your best efforts despite the boundaries put on you; or just making the most with what little you've been given; just something about making things work towards your advantage.

I realized how important it is to count your blessings. Seriously. There's always something to be grateful about in a day (it's tad bit too overrated from me to mention those little things..but you'll know what i mean..).

It's not a perfect world, yes. We're not perfect, that's why we're human. Spirits on a human journey some say....humans on a spiritual journey to others. (Pardon me for i'm on train of random thoughts now)...
Some of the little dramas (or dramatically big) that happen in our daily lives, although we may constantly be flinging our arms out in eXtreme gestures describing such events, complaining perhaps, whining perhaps, venting out perhaps, we secretly do yearn for such occurs...
I'm not saying all the dramas...or course there are always those unwanted ones...

But these things big or small are what gives us a chance to express ourselves. We may be despising the subject matter of what we're complaining about but the whole point of it is just to be heard. To express. Then again you could get teeny-tiny matters probably not even worth bringing up (those things people go on about 24/7 you don't really want to hear about...)
Back to being grateful for blessings big or small, we humans tend to (or need to!) exaggerate our selves just to make our life seem bigger...or our existence matter. For one, we're constantly finding a reason for our existence and for all other Big Questions about life and what not.
....
Sometimes it feels hard to express myself knowing that in another part of the world war is happening, poverty, and every rising global issue. Lets not go too far out of Malaysia and you can already find such occurs; its a global thing and it happens every part of the world. On the ground that i walk on daily it's enough to find the harsh realities of the world we live in.
It's scary. It's intriguing. It's insane. It's beautiful. It's sickening. It's everything that it is.

How can i be happy when at this moment a child is being abused and is hanging by the thread of his life? How can i exaggerate about the beauty of a cup of tea when someone is dying of thirst?
How can i complain that what i have is not enough when someone else has absolutely nothing to begin with? Not even the knowledge of the ideals of love we so often strive to obtain nor the meaning of rich friendships. How can i turn the left cheek from the very ideals i am fighting for when my deeds clash with my words? How can i judge that person based on a mass while i claim that i am against war?
How. how. why. why. why. how.

Goodness. a reason for everything. an understanding i may never grasp. a reason...what is it..or what are they....? what. what. what. why. how.
Even i can't give you an answer for all those questions. If you put aside your ego you might be able to recognize it as questions of your own. maybe not.
It's life. the way of life. So we make the most of what we already have. And as humans we will always want more.

Subconsciously every now and then we go against what we preach. It's scary. Even i admit to it. But it's a fact. And however we may see it, in whatever light; whether we are doing it obviously or not, subconsciously or not, controversially or otherwise; it happens.

I feel living an unexpressed life aches. Hence even the smallest awed beauty is expressed. Whether it matters to you or not, it matters to me.
It's a matter of how we express ourselves. and what perhaps.

I don't mean to go against what i may claim to be fighting for. But merely being depressed because of a part of the world that is sick and doomed doesn't really help either. Life goes on and the illusion of time that exists in forever now moments is only moving forward. We all have a part to play.
Even just one can make a difference. And that's entirely up to you.
......
*This week...
Quite a number of people have scoliosis and don't realize it. I have it. maybe that's why i have a keen eye for it.
In the news: Schoolyard Slayings, Newark, New Jersey.
Health news: 1O Symptoms Not To Ignore

......
Forgive me for any offending views or statements. We're diverse human beings. We live in a world defined by borders. Variety! Unique! Weird! Strange! Different! Same! Same difference!?

2007-08-07T07:30:00.001-07:00

2007-08-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

Jet leg from Jupiter

♥headaches be gone!!

♥Sabrina Ward Harrison rox!

♥Just Breath is my loop...

♥Reformatted my lappy finally! Yay :D

♥Vanilla lime ice-cream today was bliss

♥Busy busy week!

♥...oh, Happy Bra Day! ;D lolx

. . . . . . . . . .

I lost all that i wanted to put down. Seriously the days have been quite filled and i haven't had a moment to re-frame. Hee. Well last weekend was tiring but fun :D

Went to the PC fair to get some laptop equipment and reformatted as well that day : ) Next day just chilled with Lulu, Ray and Bble...watched some movies...hee ;D

And this week classes are starting to get busy with assignments (and it's only Monday!). But i'm looking forward to it...hohoh*

Will post some pictures up soon,

until then

C h e e r S !

2007-08-01T10:24:00.001-07:00

It's a stRaNge and achiNgLy beaUtiFul world...

Dedicated to Lulu,

(click to enlarge)

I meant to write a post here. but i'm beat and it's bedtime.
Anyways, this is just an experiment with the tablet and colors.
I'll repost the art when i have time to work on it again.
; )

Hope you like it Luu.

C h e e r S !

2007-07-31T09:49:00.000-07:00

Playing: Crawling in the Dark -Hoobastank

Afternoon classes tend to be less lively for me.
The wind nearly blew my skirt up in a parade.
Loving the night swim in the pool.

: )

c h e e R s!

2007-07-29T23:48:00.000-07:00

Like hello, SO eXcited!

omg...omg. I am. I truly am just happy this moment :D
Had my first classes today. Just briefing la since it's week O. But goodies, so motivated and so excited!
I know, i know, the thrill of the begining, ey?
Next thing you know it's whining and grinding down the road of overloaded work and stress...#*&%$#! Well i guess we'll get there but as of this moment i'm a bliss ; )
Started oiling on my drawing skills again since last week actually and have been so enthused since then. I think i was so excited drawing last night i was high-ed and ended having trouble with sleep. -_____- ""
Honestly, my drawing hands have rusted...and i have all semester to do nothing but improve :) This sem it's more focused in and all about ANIMATION so that's pretty much all there is to do and think about this sem! Well of course there's all that sub-sub studies that fall under the field.....what can i say? MAJOR!

*sigh*

Let's hope this charging enthusiasm don't die soon... : )

c h e e r S !

Picture of the day: RUSSIAN WATERWORKS (Can you feel me??)

(SOURCE: Yahoo! NEWS)

2007-07-27T08:00:00.000-07:00

pSycHedelic. neOn. dizZy. haRsH. oveR-eXposed. lovE.

(snaps by: aimzy, mayzy & chewy)

Thank you Mayzy & Chewy :)
Loves ya!

Cest la Vie!

2007-07-26T07:09:00.000-07:00

WarNiNg: Emo-ness! Philosophical! Patriotic! (erm...) Tired!

A quicky post before i retire for the night
I am so loving my nails right now btw : )

(left nails)(right nails)

*meow*

Today was fun! fun! FUN!
Met Lulu just on my way to the bus ; ) Then met Mayzy and Chewy at Midvalley (Yippie!) Love you guys : )
Ha-ha. What can i say... : )
Anyways it was also great to meet up with my college mates again yesterday.

Deep convos. bridging hearts. smiles. laughter. reunion. : )
Oh, the humanity!
Hee hee~
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Change happens whether you want them to or not
Some changes have to happen
Well since some changes are unwanted but unavoidable,
I decided to make the changes I wanted and could.
If it's for the better, why not?
: )

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A page from a book of inspiration--

From time to time,
we all feel a little disappointed
with our lives and perhaps the people in them.
We start questioning our daily routines;
a sense of loneliness touches our hearts,
and we wonder what life is really all about.
When you reach this point in your life,
take a moment and forget about
what has gone before...
and start believing in
what you really want today.
It is by redirecting our lives that we can keep
ourselves headed in the right direction,
and it is by standing still that
we allow time to just pass us by.
It is looking at a sunrise or a sunset
and appreciating its beauty for ourselves
that enables us to understand
some of life's mysteries.
No two people see the world the same way,
nor do they think or feel
or even experience things around them
with the same exact perception.
Don't try to mold yourself or your life
into a design that isn't you;
rather, paint the days
with all the colors you so desire
and enjoy the artwork that you alone
can create.
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C h e e r S !

to be continued...

Was it Qi Gong?

2007-07-23T05:04:00.000-07:00

Time: 8.08pm
Listening to: Upgrade -Beyonce

WoohooO
Lovin' the day so far.
Went grocery shopping today : )
And omg guess what i saw at the supermarket??
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.
.
.
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They were so adorable! *Meow*
But i ain't adopting one anytime soon...
I wouldn't want to keep one in a cage. BTW it's not good>>>We Need SPACE!
Actually, i was supposed to get one in grade six for scoring in my UPSR (haha).
Even had a hutch built for it and i had imagined how it would be to have my piggies running around the lawn. But i got a pair of rabbits instead due to the reason that guinea pigs could give you asthma...so said my vet aunt.
: (
Oh well. Just like cats i'd rather adore them from afar.

Feeling tired but still restless.
Actually cleared out some of my stuff from last sem.
Omg. My stuff are way too many. My books especially...
Just thinking of the day when i'd be moving 'em out.
(*o*)""
Not such a good picture...*
Ok maybe i'll just work on my jewelery board for now.
: )

Eat your veggies and remember to bring your umbrella, people!

C h e e r S !

July Breezes.

2007-07-21T04:50:00.000-07:00

I'M BaCK!

Yes. Oh snap. I just watched a disturbing video and i feel like... *puke*

Ok. Well i've been meaning to update since a couple of hours ago.
Oi shit. An insect just bit me. I killed it on the spot like squished it where it bit me cause i recall someone saying that if you did so when a red ant bit you it would not sting cause you'd be squishing the 'anti-venom' or something . So instead, the sting would wear off. For red ants at least.
That thing that just bit me was not a red ant. Some tiny-winged-colorful thing.
It's so itchy now.

. . . . . . .

I know i promised an update. But i'm so blank at this moment.
And not to mention i left half the snaps i took during the break back home...
We'll just have to see. Some random post now and then...of the break.
I actually dug out some pics from last christmas. Me likey.

. . . . . .

Life has been great really. The break has been so-o relaxing. The weather was ok-ok la. Hot mostly during the day and rainy in the evenings. Everyone else were busy with work/school so it's just mostly me and...me. Sad. Not. He-he.
I 'worked' at home so that explains the less outings this break. Indulged myself with books, movies and food. Ho-ho.
Omg. My sugar craving was so bad. I craved ice-cream almost every night! Then siso Dreamz would spare me with some Oreos now and then =)

Saturdays were great! Badminton time...he-he. The little people in training? How could i miss it... :) I actually joined in the training and coached at the same time. Best of all were the doubles games! My last saturday was the bomb. I actually played like there was no tomorrow. Well, until i got a cramp leg that is. Hee hee. Breath-terrific : )

15.07.07- Watched H.P with the sibs and cuzzie crew. I think there was around 17 of us? Anyways i thought the movie was fine but for those who read the book you could expect a slight disappointment. There were funny bits as well. Funny when cuzzie Luz is there. Haha. Omg his laughter is the most loudest, unique and contagious laugh you'll ever hear. I just started laughing even though the scene wasn't that funny--his laugh, omg. It just caught on. Hee ; )
Don't you just love happy laughing people? ~_^
Then there was the overloaded lift incident. Zzz. 3 people went out of the lift--still overloaded. Then i went out--still. Then________________.

THE WEATHER- There were 2 or 3 days when the wind was blowing off the hook (eek that doesn't sound right).Anyway it was kindda nice...but scary. Once, i left the clothes out to dry and the grey clouds started rolling in. I hoped it would just pass by but seeing as it wasn't i decided i should bring the clothes in. Before i knew it the winds were starting up a storm. Omg. I kept looking up hoping that no coconuts would fall.
Yes. Bludi'el them winds i tell you, could prolly catch a flying cow.

Well other than that, the starry night sky, the dawn, the sunset---magnifique.

I'm sleepy. To be continued...

Because I was here and it was there.

2007-07-18T05:40:00.000-07:00

You want it to make perfectly no sense; only you know.

Feels like i'll get sick not putting the words in a sentence; like how crying once in a while helps to get the toxic out of your system. it doesn't matter what sense it is to you. it does to me.
maybe it's because of starting again. again. that word, who'd wish it not be ecstasy(?); oh, the bliss. again, again, again.
halt. too much of a good thing can be bad. but what if it was bad to begin with? oh, what dread.

all over again. argh. the frustration. but the will, the will. the possibility; the hope; the belief.
oh, the humanity!
desires. delicious that word. oh, but the guilty indulgence! guilty? guilt?

deserved. but why? to watch in satisfaction the antagonist suffer; to drench in delight to reward the sweat; to say 'this belongs to me!'.

you see, i still have my guard up. i will not tell you. at least not how it is.

Almost There!

2007-07-13T23:06:00.000-07:00

I'M BACK!
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
...urm, not really... XD

I'm at a CC actually and since i got hours to kill why not. . . =]

It's been a loooooooooooong time since i've updated and to tell you the truth, i don't miss the internet that much since i got back for the break (^~*)
HoHoHo~
I can't believe it's coming to 5 weeks now! Gasp.
AND a NEW semester is just around the corner! Gaaaahhhhhhhhh . . . . . !
Goodies, life has been great =)
Things were a bit slow (relaxing) the first 2 weeks but after that i got loads up my sleeve. *grin*
I'll update soon when i'm back to the 6th floor pool view, oil palm plantation for a scenery, and bunk bed's the place to retire. Hee~

So be sure to check in a week's time. . .

Until then, Cest la Vie!

She Did Not Fly.

2007-06-13T02:14:00.000-07:00

What?
I'm still here?
This can't be....
Oh, but it can....
Whatever it is there must have been a reason why God did not put me on that plane this morning...
.....
I missed my flight.
Or rather pushed it to tomorrow....
.....
Waiting in the airport all midnight only to find myself back at a place i was supposed to say goodbye for _______!

Life is great*

Everyone was sending me welcome home messages.... T-T

2007-06-12T09:53:00.000-07:00

12.53 AM - Am at the airport as of this moment. Few minutes to 1 am and the lights are flickered off one by one. (it's not that dramatic--just some of the lights). I'm still induced by anxiety from my flight ticket problems earlier. made it to the airport somehow and managed to settle my flight ticket from here. what hassle--
oh well. i guess this time my vanilla milkshake didn't help much with a push of sugar high *bad indeed in times of stress and rising blood levels*
Was close to canceling my flight tonight but managed to pull through that.
Now with all this time I just hope my lappy batt don't die on me too soon because i have so MUCH time to kill. and it's eerie here. (~_^)
aaahh...finally, a victim on MSN to entertain me *hohoho*

There has been so much to ponder upon.

People, please don't talk much about something you really don't know much about or not too sure about the facts because you ain't seen it for real or experienced it yet, as in you're too darn hard-headed on your ego to allow some room for people who actually know their facts straight to share it with you--when you asked for it, or better yet explained it as though you knew.

Home is where the heart is, or the family. :)

It's not always how the place is--so friggin developed in terms of technology and architecture that it's the BEST place...

Developed places don't always mean it's all developed minds.
In fact, a place that's more developed than the minds of the community could be by hook or crook dangerous.

. . . . . . . . . . .

As a friend once quoted, 'Money doesn't buy class.'

But then again, most people refuse to ponder upon such things that requires us to actually really use our brains followed by the appropriate actions...and so they resort to simplistic thinking...
Not many know how much damage this does to our society...
Not many probably even know what i am talking about...

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2007-06-12T03:19:00.001-07:00

. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

It's mid-year people!
How are those new year's resolutions doing?

Moving up?
Down?
or Nowhere?

I am flying home soon in a few hours...hohoho~
It's so funny how so many things can happen in such a short time. Maybe not that hilarious but wonderfully unplanned things that just seem to catch you off guard--how! I just packed my stuff today and I so dread it! Usually I'd have started a week earlier...seriously. But this past week has been a fast
motion blur--in a way. Well I always intend on packing light but that's close to impossible. And the books! omg...my precious books...
Oh well.

Smiley little happy people. lamb chop. vanilla milkshakes. the beach. sister act. the starry night sky. the salty breeze. the crazy arse beloved peeps. the family.
--awaits me.
: )

Poetry In Motion

2007-06-10T20:37:00.000-07:00

Song of the day: Sunrise -Angel City

Here are a couple of pictures from Yahoo! News
There were loads of 'em but these were among my favorites

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FLOATING STATEMENT Children run through 6 thousands balloons outside Brazil's national congress in Brasilia, on Tuesday, June 5th. The World Wildlife Fund Brazil placed the balloons in protest against the country's daily emission of six million tons of greenhouse gasses.

JURMALA SUNSET : Swans fly over the Baltic sea during a sunset in Jurmala, near Riga.(AFP/Janek Skarzynski)

SAUDI SUN : The sun sets in the Saudi city of Hail, around 700 kms north of downtown Riyadh.(AFP/Hassan Ammar)

Fireworks explode over Moscow river during a fireworks contest, late June 1, 2007. REUTERS/Denis Sinyakov (RUSSIA)

DREAM CATCHER : Danielle Arico (L) and Steven Marshall perform the scene "Dream Catcher" during a dress rehearsal of the dance company Momix at the Joyce Theater in New York.(AFP/Timothy A. Clary)

Ending the day : Fishermen return from the sea as the sun sets, ending the day in Jimbaran, on Bali island.(AFP/Sonny Tumbelaka)

I feel so far away from a lot of things
Yet still attached to the things i wish be far from me
I have raised my guards up
Not afraid
Maybe still hurting silently
Can you hurt unconsciously?
. . . . . . .
I'm supposed to fly back home today
But it's not gonna happen;
Not today.

1OthJuneO7.

2007-06-09T22:23:00.000-07:00

Sunday again. could only mean one thing--it's already been a month.
I finally closed the book of The Road Less Traveled & Beyond. The closure was good and only left me with questions of my own. I decided to google the author and i was shocked to find that this amazing man has already left this world 2 years back.

My highest salute and gratitude to M.SCOTT PECK, may you rest in peace.

I was yet again left in a confusion of thoughts or rather a myriad of questions; I tried to relate the things that the author had written in his book and that of his own last years of his life's journey after his last book, The Road Last Traveled & Beyond.

The last chapter somehow feels close to home.

8thJuneO7.

2007-06-07T20:21:00.000-07:00

Good morning Friday!

Feels like forever somehow...it's just been two days since i had posted anything...
It's been helluva tiring!
The badminton tourney was good...though i was clearly not prepared for it...the games were okay....

I entered the hall just to play.
It didn't feel like those years back where you played to claim victory. The excitement of a challenge; adrenalines pumping. Ha-ha.
But it was still home for me--*

Yesterday was interesting though...
A conversation with a bunch of high school kids
Talks of life, love;

*Marie's laughter is damned contagious! She does not look her age and though she can make you laugh endlessly, mess with her and she'll spite you double.
She started teasing *Mikey and try as he did to ignore her, she started to spill his secret crush...
I tell you, he started wailing like a duck about to be killed the moment she opened up on his top secret.
Every time she was about to mention whatever it is that made him embarassed he would start wailing.

[MARIE] Ey guys, Mikey was crying yesterday!
[MIKEY]wth are you talking about?!
[MARIE]Omg it was hilarious! he was heartbroken---
[MIKEY]what?!
[MARIE]because---
[MIKEY]*starts wailing*
*Marie goes on talking but we couldn't hear her cause Mikey's wail started hitting the high keys*
[MARIE]hahahaha! *Natasha broke his heart----
[MIKEY]*starts wailing*

. . . . . . . .

"I get so many proposals from girls in my school but I won't accept them cause I already like someone--and I only want her."

. . . . . . . .

A mother looks at her baby boy and says, 'Son, you're going to break so many hearts when you grow up...'

6thJuneO7.

2007-06-05T10:39:00.000-07:00

It's 2O minutes to 2 am.
I have a game at 9 in the morning...and I have to wake up at 5 am.
Oh well.

. . . . . .

When you know that it's love
Maybe you'll know when it's not

2007-06-03T13:01:00.000-07:00

A record with Mayzy: 3 H 40 Mins

*This song is so emo*

Two more chapters for The Road Less Traveled and Beyond!

Chilling is the name of the game…

Brian-kun, hang in there! Work for me la kays? XD

4thJuneO7.

2007-06-03T08:45:00.000-07:00

Footsteps outside my door
In a far-fetched imagination, it is fear
But for some it is real

Broken records holding you on
Or maybe it's the other way round
But the summer breeze just breaths memories
A childhood never forgot;

A broken rainbow stained in the sky
The taste of salt in the breeze
Old school music
Back in the days when matrimony meant forever
When God watches at night with a hundred billion eyes
When the blackout candles entitled you to one wish
The emptiness when the party's over
The evening adventures
New year's bond fires
Talks of love at a tender age of 9
The day fairy tales only belonged in movies or story books
When you walk against the wind with an umbrella,
In hopes it will blow you away to another world (Do not try this at home)
Catching falling leaves
The worth of 50cents back then
When raws with little brothers could turn vicious
When dreams were so beautiful you could hardly wait to grow up
And then reality hits

You are now where you used to look from a far;
Tomorrow has become your todays.

Gridiron Gang

2007-06-02T22:13:00.000-07:00

It's June!

And there's a big storm rolling in right now *eeekk*
Well today wasn't so bad.
Instead of Sunday, I got my dreaded phone call on a Saturday night.
Nice.

I just watched this movie, Gridiron Gang and I love it!

It's based on a TRUE STORY. Basically about a group of teenagers at a juvenile center who come together and learn to work as a team whilst rebuilding their self-esteem when their counselor starts a football team in hopes of changing the fate of these delinquents .
There are over 120,000 juveniles incarcerated in detention centers across the U.S...
Upon release, 75% will either return to prison or die on the street...
This story is about the people who tried to make a difference--

Check it out!

2007-05-30T05:27:00.000-07:00

I can make it through another day...

I Miss Home.

2007-05-29T23:08:00.000-07:00

All I Ask

2007-05-29T07:59:00.000-07:00

I can't find the words
I just want my wings back
I never asked for more
I never asked for flowers at my door
I never asked for sweet promises
That's usually sealed with kisses
I never asked for you to change
Because I might not do the same
I never asked for all the riches that will only rust and rot on earth
They're only temporary mirth
I never asked for all these things
For me not true happiness it brings
All I ask
You be true to yourself and me
All you've said; you be.

-Aimz

29thMay'O7

2007-05-29T01:31:00.000-07:00

4.36 pm, TUES - goodness. what a boring day. actually the peace and quiet is quite nice actually. i've pulled open the couch into a bed and laid all my books around me. love it. well i was awoken by a phone call yet again and proceeded with some chocolate milk and cookies.
It's funny how you still have something to talk about with someone you don't talk to anymore. or how that someone could come up with so much crap to prolong the conversation. friendly....but not friends.
Just pay me back, ok?

I really need to start back on my Qi Gong. I truly have slacked in that line.

hmm....
~~laundry~~
~~email dad~~
~~spring clean~~

...egad.
2 more things....

Mayzy, can break a heel anot?

2007-05-28T12:51:00.000-07:00

A breakthrough?
What be it?

Books piled up
Knowledge upon knowledge
Secret wishes
And daring dreams
A consolation of the heart
Funny,
The ironicalness
But how it all falls into place
And how justice paints a bigger picture
Unfair still
As much as we want it to matter
What bigger picture is there?
You see that in each one you are in it
But of course, it is your life
And then there are those
Whom shall always be part of it

It is not always a matter
Just that apart from change and uncertainty
I cannot always mold the situation
For not every detail i can spare
And i am sorry for with-holding back my part
But the least that i want is pity
Please understand

A spec of dust
Nothing to you or me
But that which stands in visible grandeur
Is but the accumulation of something which was nothing
Please be patient

Nobody ever got anywhere
Without starting somewhere

Part I

2007-05-28T08:28:00.000-07:00

Recap.End.Begin.

2007-05-26T20:13:00.001-07:00

Recap of the 4th Semester....

This semester started out pretty good. I came back with fresh hopes and determinations for things that changed and the things i wanted to change.
The first few weeks were fabulous. I was a walking sunshine. The view from my balcony changed in a way; the feelings changed; in a good way. And love was great.

But life throws challenges at the very things you strive to change or attain. Any new vow beckons trial. And mine was put to the test.

For one, writing has saved me.
I may not be as good as my sister but i love it no less. And well you don't have to be measured good in writing to be able to write. i mean if it helps, just write; spill your expressions in your own words. It's for you. :)
Anyways, i type in the days on Word more than i write them in my journal nowadays cause it seemed more convenient. But i still love Blooking!

Well. this semester i would say was much better than the past two. but the past semesters served their purpose and i have no regrets.

It seems so ironic. but it is the way it is. and it is the way i perceived it to be.

Earlier this year, i was a mediator for most and a faithful listening ear. i answered to calls of dear friends in crisis. and i learned a lot too from helping others. i recognized some of the situations as ones i have gone through as well in the past. even ones that i knew i would anticipate soon in time.

27th January'O7-

Where you are now

Sometimes you might forget

The horizons that are yet to cross your path

Once in a while it’s good to look ahead

Imagine a beautiful life

And come back to the moments you have with you now

Live each day with a smile in your heart

Know and believe in the beautiful days to come

Cherish the beautiful days you have now

Keep smiling

You will get there

. . . . . . .

Well looking back i have been pretty optimistic. I carried on positively despite the unexpected twist and turns of life. and looking for the good in the not so good things has helped a lot. i know it ain't easy but we do have the power to change our lives. (hohoho)

Grew much closer to my classmates this sem. We barely had lunch at college anymore so we would drive out for lunches. it was coolies. and one time i joined in on the Counter Strike team (-_-). being the only girl in class, it was fun i guess kicking ass these hardcore gamers. ha-ha.

February'O7-

Through the sunshine & the bliss

Was a reason to believe

Through the tears & heartache

Was the determination to change

I could have let go

Literally

But I learned and have grown

With this new hope in the heart

Taking its first steps

It is never easy

For any new vow beckons trial

Some days I smile through it

But some days I feel like giving up

I no longer hold a hand to be with

I no longer expect much…

I give this heart willingly

Realizing that I still hope it be held on a pedestal

No more…

I no longer push nor stand still

I’m moving forward

I’m taking you with me

Let’s move forward

Lets…

. . . . . . .

[January-May 2OO7]

Most over-used word: what?

Most over-used phrase: Time flies by so fast!

My broken record: too many to mention....i love music :)

My thirst quenchers: Green tea, Justea, Vanilla Milkshake, Fresh Milk, Teas and Coffee...Water.

My hunger satisfiers: Spaghetti, Porridge, Fruits, Lamb chop....take out!

Mind cussing: Mother E!

Books: Fiona Harrold, The Road Less Traveled and Beyond (still reading), The Wildlife Year....Art & Fashion magz for inspiration

Nail color: Vain Purple, Pastel Pink, Glittery Silver

Peeves: lack of sleep, late buses, rude people

Loves: chilling at the balcony, my besties, nice weather, the cooling breeze, singing on a bad day, vanilla milkshake on...any day :) , laughing, a beautiful sky, the night sky(!), when it starts raining right after i reach my stop, when my mommy texts me, when my dad calls, when my lil' sis says 'I love you!', when i force my lil' bros to tell me they miss me *evil grin*, good surprises, good food, real people, ma'am patricia's lectures, inspiration, when mayzy is such a doinker, when vivi and dudu are such doinkers, good movies, sleep.....mucho mucho....

. . . . . . .

Before i knew it, the tables were turned. it was my turn to reach out. and dear friends gladly answered my call. it was weird at first. but i was non the less grateful to be blessed with such beloved people. thank you :)
And yes, surprisingly though i had anticipated some things, what i had lost, i had gained a hundred times more. and it would not have been possible had i not been counting my blessings. cause it would have been so much easier to over-look the little joys of life. but hey, i chose otherwise.

to be continued...

Sunday Morning.

2007-05-26T19:17:00.000-07:00

10.19 am - I slept in today. well just until 10. and i actually went to bed quite early last night. fell asleep reading. It was a long and exhausting day yesterday but never short of fun when Mayzy is in it *nyahaa*

wow. during the weeks of college agony i didn't really get a bad cough other than an itchy and sore throat. well i was unwell a couple of times but just as far as aches and migraines can go and even that was due to lack of sleep and the work frenzy. but when i woke up today i had lost half of my voice.
and i finally had a real cough just now. really.
before i would call it a dry cough but this ain't dry...

ANYWAY

It has been 3 straight Sundays that i have been getting phone calls from people who have no shame at all. the nerve of calling me and assuming that it's all cool.
damn it people, i feel sorry for you.

And tonight God be with me that i find the right words to speak. for some people truly do not deserve face. sigh. well there's no point in speaking blatant lashes. so let it be short and kempt.

. . . . . . .

Emancipation.

2007-05-25T00:41:00.000-07:00

FINALLY!!!
F . i . n . a . L . L . y .

...YES. The 4th semester has come to an End...

*Overwhelmed*

A break for now.
And i can blog without looking at the time and think of the work that need be done.
: )

Nyahahahaha~
My happy list awaits me.

Shout out to my classmates:

Thanks for making this semester a fun and enjoyable experience..!
Love you guys!
*sorry, some of you are left out from the pics!*
(thanks Sing for the pics!)

Sing, Me & Eddy with our packaging set

Kevin, John & Brian *aaww aren't they cute?* XD

Me & Seto with his light bulb packaging design

. . . . . . .

Friday. May 25th. - I finally submitted everything today. I was tempted to take the cab what with all the bulk of assignments i had to carry (which were not only mine...) but after spending my kachings on printing and binding i decided to wait for the bus. Yes, the bus. It was okay though and i was glad i didn't opt for the taxi. At college: submit. submit. submit. Submit, damn it!
...and after that i couldn't help grinning on the bus ride home...ha-ha.
I got me my fav green tea drink to soak up the sense of accomplishment. : )

The past few weeks were mad. Those grueling days of stress and anxiety. sleepless nights and days. not that there wasn't any much time to sleep. but even the thought of work that needs to be done can keep you awake.
i realized it had been more than a month that i had been giving the same answers to my peeps:
'aimz, busy?'
'yah.'

'aimz, what yo doin?'
'work...'

hahaha. damned. but of course it wasn't all that focused...

Me: Mayzyyyyy.......!!! I can't focusssss!!.....I keep procrastinating... I don't want to...but i have to!! ...Lazy....

or better yet:

'Okay, i'm off to have a 'nap' now... :)'

aaahhh. well i can call it a break for now. hee~ I do still have loads to put down...but i guess i'll leave that for another day. maybe tonight. lol.

C h e e r S !

Desert Dawn.

2007-05-22T15:08:00.000-07:00

The dawn too is a memory
Of home and of you
The whispers that escape the early mornings
Before life breaks the still of rest
The twilights that drown in the great light
It is calm.
Change does take place
And songs do take you on rides
To yesterdays or hopeful tomorrows
The poet sleeps in the tranquil moments
And stirs to the splashed colors on the canvas that is life
It is beautiful
Through all its brokenness and flaws
It is human
It is life
And it is how you paint it.

-7.OO am.23rdMayO7.

Huhu~ It's been a while....
Today is the day of presentation once again.
Yesterday was a good day--for printing.
: )
It only started pouring as my bus arrived home.
And the breeze for the walk back was so serene.
Emo-ness.
Ha-ha
C h e e r S

It's Over?!...NOT!!

2007-05-21T05:03:00.000-07:00

~~DESIGN STUDIES~~....X!!!

Yes...as the title suggests it's not really over...BUT most of the hardships has been surpassed~! Presentation with the client is finally over and done with! And we left the college around 7.30 pm. it was dark and hallow. eerie. but for one, I'm so relieved. HOWEVER, we still have to present one more time this Wednesday. huh~! well at least there's not much left but a little correction and the journals.

After my bus finally arrived this morning on the way to college i thought i was gonna murder the bus driver. seriously. i was cussing all the while i was waiting for the unpunctual bus... -_-** well only in my mind.
when you're late you find yourself running after the bus. and when you're not you seem to be waiting for ages. damned. anyhows finally made it to college and met up with the group. proceeded to do some more final printing (damnit!)
Oh here's the best part. as i touched down college grounds my two members honked me and i hopped into the car with them and we were driving back to street mall (basically back to my place)...after all that waiting! they could have just came to my place instead... wth.
well. my day wasn't over.
we were on our way to puchong next for printing. all that hassle of finding the right paper and resizing/ editing/ editing *#@%*#$. and finally printing. in between hoping that nothing else screws up.
had lunch. and i was sinking into a low drive enthusiasm for the presentation. apparently we had to wait for the client and guide him back to college with us. the sun was too bright. made me sleepy. had my shades on and caught some eye-shutter the ride back. the sky was beautiful though.

omg. i was sulking about my purple bag which was the savior of my whole to and fro trips since i had loads to carry with me today. well. it started in the car when the belacan spilled in my bag @_@. 1st was the strong belacan smell. then my white scrunchy caught on @_@ and well basically it was a drag cause i had my heels (wth), sunnies, package bottles all thrown in together. .... T_T

It was pleasant in some ways :)
Even with all the rushing and last minute patching up, the anxiety of the day was rather sleepy in a manner. somehow the worries of the day kind of felt weird. yet still knots and ties only bland (?) i dunno.

*pictures coming up!*

21stMayO7.

2007-05-20T18:50:00.000-07:00

Need to vent! Need to rant! I gots a few mins cause i need to catch the bus again later.... *0* nya~! I just got back from printing..waited for the bus yet again..and i need to head to college after this...
*Beautiful Sunday playing in the background*
Aaahh....FINAL presentation today~!! Ganbate ne!
*sips on full cream milk*
well presentation starts at 3pm...hope i won't be expired by then (-_-)"
OKAY i need to go NOW!
*nyaa~*

to be continued...

19thMayO7

2007-05-19T02:28:00.000-07:00

Time: 5.57 pm
Listening to: High -Light House Family

It's a Saturday!! and one that i hope to be able to relax...well i chose to despite the plans for today... was supposed to leave for kl this morning unfortunately for my messed up clock i woke up at 9 which was kind of late...actually i woke up to a phone call...'Pizza Hut'... @_@ haha. anyway, decided to sleep in 'till i had enough. and yes it's time to finish up those leftover work! ...a picture of my desk...as you can see my wall is bombarded by yellow post-its of to-dos and lists...which i clear up every now and then and start posting up again as i list down the to-dos of the day.....huhu~ well now they're all coming off my wall since i have one more last project to get off my hands! and oh please let it be my last week next week because i seriously can't deal @_@

2007-05-17T06:42:00.000-07:00

Morning Blues

2007-05-16T14:29:00.000-07:00

Time: 5.35 am
Listening to: Lady -Mojo
Feeling: Hungry + :)

Desktop: (haha...yes this is ma' current desktop...yes i was checking out your blog...and yes i'm working!)

Good morning world. there ain't no sunshine right now. it's too damn early for that. anyway this is what i call a break from work. woke up around 3am...got rid of the migraine (i know, it's too often) and was fresh up for work. my lecturer actually p.m-ed me and she asked if i was rushing on her work... @_@ haha. i told her i was 'patching up some work'. which was true... anyhows i remembered chatting with Mayzy and us both going on about how we haven't started on work/ can't focus/ procrastinating/ yada yada...and i started painting my nails (-_-)" before i fell asleep on the couch. hoho. well i was so happy today (yesterday actually) when i submitted two of my assignments--for good! now there's only design studies to focus on...all day today. ulps.

Just want to wish you peeps the best of luck for those who are still running around patching work up. submissions. presentations. finals. and the likes. and those who quote 'Dear holiday, please wait for me...!' haha. =)

Omg. Zul, thank you :)
AND sorry! about the desktop. i swear it's cute. guess it just doesn't like your comp... XD

c h e e r s

2007-05-15T05:39:00.000-07:00

At ends will
There are new bounds created.
I strive for the last belief
That i can cope with.

I watch people stare at other people and wonder what goes through their minds.

Sometimes i feel reckless; i feel ungroomed;
i feel less than perfect (not perfect to begin with);
my hair a mess; my complexion bare; and my scents naked;
my being is less proper;
i feel the breeze run through my hair;
touch the dirt with reckless abandon;
embrace care freeness;
and i love it.

Some people like it straightforward. It ain't always about how you like it. but how you get it. i begin with why my amazement never ceases to last. for possibilities as the word itself suggests, can be a predictable unpredictability. one might not understand. when one does maybe because of similar events that a line of words seem to find relevance or meaning. there was a reason for such accounts to take place, to define you as who you are today. it ain't perfect. but you have a choice. the days when you didn't, look again, there's a chance as well. it's up to you. are you conscious of such things? it's unexpected of all mankind to grasp such a mutual understanding of things. then again, it falls under reason. for the wheel of life does go on. it's mad. it's sickening. it's beautiful. it's insane. it's everything it's turned out to be. it's everything it shouldn't be. or could be better. it's for oneself. but we don't make it alone in this world.

Tuesday.May15th.

2007-05-14T23:40:00.000-07:00

I have no idea as for now. my bus ride was l o n g. so i was thinking up a bunch of stuff to put down. surprisingly met Fiqo at the erl station (apart from appearing in cyberia yesterday as well) *stalker* Well the whole trip was quite inspiring. from college to kl with luu. and all around. and catching the last bus and the midnight alley walk. and...and here i am now. exhausted. pretty much. all inspiration calls for 'rest' to be revived once self is recharged. i am less of artistic these days (?) whatever one may perceive. anyhows i have a week to go. a week! my FINAL college week. damned. my mind's half cruising to holiday-ness. alas i still have work to patch up. i miss home. i miss my violin. i miss the beach. i miss my siblings. i miss mom's lambchop. i miss those nostalgic moments of yesteryears.

i miss men

to be continued...

2007-05-13T07:40:00.000-07:00

I'm Real Lyrics

Life is not Random

2007-05-12T03:00:00.001-07:00

If you love someone
It may be a risk to let that someone know
Why?
Because you risk loosing them instead of what you hoped for otherwise
And when you don’t you torture yourself;
And you might regret;
For not ever telling at all;
When it is too late
When that person is gone
Or when you are.
Sometimes we fear for that awkwardness
Sometimes we create it
Sometimes we fear being known or being understood
Or that things will change
And you are now seen in a different light
Tell me what is different?
I guess there is…
To see now what you never saw before, but what was always there.
But when you don’t tell
You can’t expect them to know
Just by pointing out to the obvious signs;
You can’t always assume…
People don’t always take it how you think they would
It’s foolish but it’s true
If you want to, then say it…say it!
If you don’t…then don’t look back and regret
It’s unfair but you cannot expect
You can hope…but you cannot force…
This thing called Love….
And hey, a risk?

What is a risk?

To succeed or to fail
To find the same connection or rejection
To be happy or to be disappointed
To gain or to loose
Isn’t this life…
Sometimes it does harm to try
Despite the saying ‘there’s no harm in trying’
But that’s all down to you
It’s like listening
LISTENING
True listening is with-holding your judgments to the things that you might not agree on;
But not meaning that you accept them;
You’re listening to another point of view;
And you respect that;
Coming from another individual;
Who like you, has had their fair share of experiences in life
Then again, it comes down to how we perceive these experiences.
The point is,
Because you want it, you’re prepared to loose it
Whatever comes, comes
Whatever may be, let it be
At least you don’t look back to say you never gave it a shot
You did
It didn’t work out
What the hey,
You won’t die knowing you didn’t even take the chance
What is gladness without disappointments?
What is sunshine without rain?
Or what is rain without sunshine?
Sigh…
It’s hard to put it all down in one piece
Because everything is connected
And there is always more
There are always reasons
Understood or not,
Accepted or not,
Known at all or not
Sometimes, the timing was bad,
The situation does not permit
But even so, things don’t always happen in perfect conditions
You can’t always wait for the right time
Sometimes, you got to make it.

You’re an individual
With a life going on
And you know better the canvas of your life
And hey, that person there, he has a life too
Though he doesn’t seem like much
He’s an individual too.
And hey, that other guy over there, he seems to have it all together
But you have no idea what he's been through or what he's going through.
And I cannot begin to describe what one soul goes through from birth to the moment now.
You just never know.
But know that the word 'possibility' goes a long way
So though judgments may be passed
I still believe in chances.

All that you are today
Is because of all that you have gone through in your life

It’s all down to y o u