+beLLe sparkLe

ATTENTION!

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 04:14:00 +0000

Hello, peeps! I know this blog has been dead for a while...long while.... Anyways that new blog is up and running :D Please feel free to drop by:

[click me]

Have a nice day =]

p/s: This blog will still be running :)

xOxO

Back To School.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Thu, 26 Feb 2009 13:19:00 +0000

R a i n.B o w

It's been a week since I've been meaning to post an update. I finally get the time. Well classes have begun and this sem it's gonna be all about 3D! (like 90%?) Yeah. Anyway. I'm soo excited and scared at the same time! I'm still unwrapping this subject layer by layer and hopefully I'll love it even more as I learn more and more about it...YOSH!

It seems so many things have been going on lately. Or I'm just squeezing in too many things into my schedule... Hmm. Well I'm glad for one that I managed to have a mini-holiday with my bestie Virgillia a.k.a Bow a.k.a Vivi a.k.a Banana.... Heee : ) Bow spent two days over and we had a blast! We haven't been able to catch up since we were back at KK but those two days made up for it.... Hee-hee. We did all the usual (girly) stuff.... pedicures...manicures....movie marathons... :D Well we go way beyond those stuff (especially when we've known each other since we were 7!). Anyways here are some shots (through my broken little camera) of those few days. Ho~Hum : )

Oh, please feel free to drop by my deviantART page too. I've only posted a few works so far though.

CheeRs!

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Sun, 15 Feb 2009 13:07:00 +0000

Hope y'all had a good one =]

15.02.09- Yippee-- Happy bumble-bee! Pleasant moments and a blue sky filled with birds. Such is my day today. Neurotic winds do blow from time to time. But then again, they blow on any weather good or bad. Well today we had a lovely lunch by the balcony... It was a really small balcony (typical) but still it was a nice change of scenery and the four of us managed to sit comfortably for a meal. He-he. Golly-ness. My thoughts are on a treadmill. Guess I won't be ranting much tonight. Anyways I hope everyone had a lovely valentines yesterday! I know I did =] Btw, valentines isn't all about being with that one significant other.... It's about love alright, and what is love if it can't be shared with the rest of the world.... XD

CheeRs ! ♡

Not So Dead Yet.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Thu, 12 Feb 2009 16:50:00 +0000

ZEST!

The revival of BelleSparkle

: )

I know, I know.... Bukan da mati ka? Nop. =p

I'm back to blogging *fingers-crossed* and hopefully I'll be able to keep up with posts and what not. Oh, and that new blog? Well lets just say it's out there, just that I decided to keep this one rolling...

So apart from the M.I.A in practically the online world for the past year things are up and about in almost all spheres and I'm whoop-tee-doop-tee happ'ee =D I deliberately shut some doors for a while and after that much needed time of hibernation and isolation the honey tastes sweeter and the grass seems greener these days. Life is so. I know, I don't make sense. What the heck. This is a blog after all. Expression is the name of the game.

CheeRs!

(will update this post again soon!)

RE:cap.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 08:08:00 +0000

2nd July'O8-- Such a hot and sunny day : ) I'm currently addicted to Snapple's Cranberry Raspberry Juice Drink--yum! I've been slugging since the beginning of the week due to muscle cramps from the tournament...oh, which reminds me of some good news:

We won 1st place for the doubles event !!! :D

It was great.... I played 6 games (which explains the body aches) and by the time we got to the final game i was a deflated tyre....seriously. But still, we managed to hold the fort =] Hee~
Well i've just been yet again indulging in food and relaxing me self as i've some spring cleaning in line to do before i leave! Here are some photos from earlier this year.....time flies!
*sighs*

Babe, I miss you!
Thanks for being there...*hugs*

And last but not least, to my dear friend Lucy, I miss you!
Take care and all the best to you...*hugs* :')

Somewhere between Space and Earth...

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Wed, 25 Jun 2008 07:54:00 +0000

Since my last line I've been been binging on anything on the menu with 'lamb' or 'laham' (in Arabic). Bliss! : )

Hello.

So it seems i have put blogging in the back seat; with random posts on the rare occasion.
Life is a beau spelled W-E-i-R-D in colorful playful letters. Sometimes you see it in the morning mirror looking back at you; sometimes in someone you've always seen around but never imagined how much your fates would be entwined; sometimes in an old friend you've grown apart from; sometimes in just that tiny moment you get to sit down and catch your breath.

Yes, so much has happened where i left the gaps of unwritten days.

Philosophies and beliefs put the test. How at one point we do it all for ourselves, really.
I shall leave that for another day perhaps.

As of now i'm busy preparing for a badminton tournament which will be held this weekend. I'm excited alright but worried about the fact that i haven't really played for months now (!)
So many other things will be going on this weekend and time is precious as it has always been.
The practice i joined a few days ago were great. Clearly i've gotten a bit rusty but i hope to give it all that i've got still. Hee~

Anyways, i'll post another update soon as i've an hour to get ready for practice!
Ta

Falling From A Shooting Star...

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Sun, 04 May 2008 10:08:00 +0000

It's been a while.

I wish i could say i've been looking down from a star. But i've been grounded. And landed hard have i on this fragile plot of land. Stripped of every dose of sanity and sense. Blinded by words and emotions that turn to dust in the sunlight. Taunted by paradoxes and contradictions.

The beats they transcend upon me like a current. I am taken into refuge; the alms of an invisible yet unbending force. I look up from the ground once again. And i remember.

Whichever way we choose to look at things, it should never stunt us from truly being and embracing.

I'm craving for some lamb chop.

Next Stop, Jupiter...

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Wed, 20 Feb 2008 14:57:00 +0000

: )

I'm tired of the same lines, I think it's time to change the channel.
I think I almost gave up blogging. So much for that, here I am now. Hello.
Oh, it's exactly 2 weeks since beginning life at the 6th floor pool view; desert oil palm plantation for a landscape; and the orange couch a place to retire.
I see that some things will never be the same, ever; I bow and let the river take its course. I'm glad I found my bubbling euphoria again though. And love is a wonder like the grin of a Cheshire Cat.
I've been burying my head behind my National Geographic mags--can't get enough. My salvation is in the pages of a World History book. I know, I'm a bore. But I can't help it; my muse is dressed as a historian professor of some sort chanting the fields of anthropology, ancient civilization, geography, .....

"I smell rain". : )

I must say it's been depressing reading the news everyday. But it only serves to remind us the fractured reality of life. I sense a little humor though in life's little triviality.

Sha shrieks at a little tyrant redefining the meaning of boredom, "You, demon!"

Cheers mate! The pyramids of Giza await me =]

I need your vote!

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Fri, 15 Feb 2008 04:09:00 +0000

Hey, peeps! I need your support...

Rate my poem, Go here

Thankies =]

JADED CUPID --Sketched a year ago...i've posted this on my blog before...reminiscent!

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Tue, 12 Feb 2008 13:05:00 +0000

It got me too.

Bubbly.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Fri, 11 Jan 2008 11:27:00 +0000

7.27 pm - Another day : ) I passed my theory test for driving today--49/50! Ha-ha. I know it's just theory but at least I've surpassed the hassle of revising for the test which btw is a waste of time and money if i had to repeat!--2 things I can barely spare right now. So.

Work wasn't so bad today. The critique session helped a lot. Even though I had to re-do most of the work it was still good feedback. I'm getting gewd. Hee hee. Plus i'm starting to enjoy it more now that i know where i'm headed and which areas it is that i need to improve on.

I was zested from the test until now. Usually after work i'll head to the internet cafe which is family grounds while i wait for my ride home. Dinner was fun. The usual chuckle buddy, Girl, always lightens the load. I just love a dose of laughter :D And i can never go short with my beloveds : )

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I haven't really been able to post an update other than my personal day-to-day rants.But hopefully soon I will--so keep checking! ; )

Lovely Lace.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Wed, 09 Jan 2008 12:00:00 +0000

8.O1 pm - Golly, what a day it has been : ) It's already more than a week into the new year and the days are anxious heartbeats. I've started working since a few days ago at my aunt's bridal shop. But i mostly deal with photo/video editing, photo album compilation, etc--not exactly what you might have had in mind since it's a bridal shop. But that's part of the package anyway.

*Gosh I'm so hating this sticky-keys-keyboard!* Anyway it's been good so far. Of course I'm not that hyped about having my a** glued to the chair all day and staring into the monitor for hours. But it's bearable for a month i guess. Besides I get to learn quite a lot from the whole experience. Oh, and what's a bridal shop without bridal dresses?? That's one of the things that keeps me alive working there--I'm surrounded by gorgeous wonderiffic dresses!

Every now and then when I get up to get the blood going again in my legs I'll start inspecting each one of the dresses. Sparkling beads, sensuous silk, satin and glazing velvet (!), sexy lace (damn, all my beloved fabrics!) and skilled motifs--the blood of inspiration just rushes through my veins *sigh* : )

I wish I could spill more but I'm running out of time (I'm at a cyber cafe btw). The upcoming posts will probably be writings mostly. No purpose really but to vent out and express, express!

Cheers!

Huzza Huzza

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Wed, 02 Jan 2008 03:05:00 +0000

Happy New Year 2OO8 !

Hello peeps! Hope y'all had a good end for the year 2OO7 : )

Life throws challenges at the very things you strive to change or attain

Sometimes we get caught up at 'arriving' we forget the 'journey'

Heartache and tears? Sure.
But nothing beats the light when you've known darkness

And with all the things we strive to attain, some things we may never know its worth 'till you've nothing left but to contemplate the hollowness that surrounds you

But really, let's not wait 'till ends wit to realize the true jewels in your life (!)

We could all do with a little whimsy and spontaneity in our life.... : )

Here's a final curtain for the year 2OO7...enjoy!

xOxOxOxO Dedicated to my beloveds xOxOxOxO

c h e e r S !

Flawed Perfection.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Fri, 07 Dec 2007 00:40:00 +0000

Here are some sketches of recent and of past. Surprisingly I'm still busy buzzing here and there. Shall post an update soon. In the mean time, enjoy : )

--- 2OO5 sketches ---

c h e e r S !

Bits and Pieces.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Mon, 26 Nov 2007 16:49:00 +0000

ReCreating perspective + meaning.

27.11.O7 - My muse is back. And she's brought back more than inspiration--I'm a knot of bubbling euphoria awaiting to materialize. Grand.
Creating+crafting+inventing.

Beauty...
It's in everyday
The little things
We see but never notice...

In the rugged edges of dreams awaiting
Lies a still faith
Unbound and untouchable
by men's ignorant hearts,
Who only seek refuge
in the value of solidity.

The Cherry Shades Revival.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Wed, 21 Nov 2007 12:11:00 +0000

. . . . . . . .I'm B A C K !

...urm, yeah....so i've heard the 'Update, update!' nagging voices....urm, yeah....

It's been such a long time since i've touched this blog! I could barely call my latest posts updates. Anyways i'm hoping this is. *wink wink*

This semester has been helluva hectic (like any other) but i quite enjoyed it. More work but i learned so much more as well...exploring new territories....mm...nice. College wise it's been good. Life overall--superb. Ha-ha, that's exaggerated. But with all its ups and downs the canvas of my life could not be more colorful than it already is =) Grateful i am.

What's sunshine without rain, huh?

And then you have those days where it pours when it rains;

Days when you're blissfully happy;

Days when you wished you were invisible;

Days when it starts to rain just when you put your over-sized shades on;

Days when you spill coffee on the one favorite blouse you decided to wear that day;

And after all that

Days where you just indulge in a perfectly warm cup of Darjeeling,
The sun is just right and you stare into the sky with your bumble-bee shades,
The breeze sweeps gently across your face
And you feel beautiful with all the imperfections as they are
Knowing that you are human too

Pick up that brush and paint your life to your design~*
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I've got a couple of pictures of the past months' sparkles but unfortunately they're not in my hands--yet. So the next highlight would be non other than
C h r i s t m a s ! *can you hear the bells??*
These are just some of the pics i caught on the net that caught my gaze at first sight....
the lights. the ambience. the nostalgia. the warmth. the hugging splendor of familiarity. the forgotten blessings. ...can you feel me??

...more to come...
c h e e r S !

The Return of Cherry Cubes...

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Tue, 13 Nov 2007 00:30:00 +0000

Picking Up Stardust.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Tue, 25 Sep 2007 13:16:00 +0000

The days they only exist in moments we call 'now'
Yesterday was a dream, tomorrow is a vision
And yet the beauty of memories and dreams lives on.

I wish understanding were enough.
These moments are fragile
I wish i could hold onto them long enough
But tomorrow becomes today
And later becomes now
Yesterday is a distant; a memory.

Overlooking the view from raised grounds
I tap into a moment lost in time
Feelings came rushing in as though they never left
And it felt like just yesterday;
Embraced in good times
And security you wished never let go of you.

One by one, i cut these ties that bind me
Before it is too late
Before it becomes a part of me;
A liberating pain.

It's so easy to say things;
To tell someone what they need to do or should;
To say that this is right and that is wrong;
To condemn; to justify; to find fault;
But what comes next is more than breathing into the air;
Carve ye' thy words out of air?
Or breath ye' forgotten dust into the wind?

New faces fill the days as the moon slowly reveals itself by night
Early dawn when life is still,
The moonlight is a whisper in the breeze;
An eerie longing of a door that leads to a past;
And the shadows cast are nostalgic;
Secrets lie behind those shadows.

Life has been a misunderstood beau;
My muse has gone on vacation
And i stand alone with what's left of her nurturing.
She's smiling from an unmeasured distance
As i tremble for the words
And attempt to bridge meanings;
To look for inspiration in the foggy mirror of dawn;
Or dreams that have seeped into my pillow covers at night;
Or poems that are left by the stain of lip gloss on my early morning milk mug;
I search and I search,
And I am weary.
I'm still searching.

-25.09.07-

Magical Dusk.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Tue, 18 Sep 2007 11:07:00 +0000

Moments of sound and music;
Of space and time; Of emotions;
Of events and memories;

Dusk sets in
The piano keys tap into a memory
The breeze takes me way back
And the glory of the sky is a yearning for hidden tears

Forbidden love;
Decisions made by the way of life;
Inevitable but unavoidable.
The search for sanity and the flow of meaning;
But neither is the result of an attempt.

It does not make sense does it?

I am merely attempting to express myself. The gloom and doom that i feel. The joy and sparkles that i breathe. The smell of memory and yearning. The sensation of desire. The many pondering of daily life. Yes, the inevitable and the unavoidable. The reasons and consequences.

. . . . . . .

It hurts, it hurts
Emotional pain that feels so real
That binds your breath
And aches your chest
Got you gasping for sense and reason
Like your breath you can't seem to find.

Its a wonder this bliss
Of gratefulness and unuttered joy
A senseless euphoria;
You hold onto like your breath
Taking in every delight
Like an infinite moment.

A strange and achingly beautiful part of being human

Sweet Cravings + Reality.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Sun, 16 Sep 2007 02:47:00 +0000

. . . . . . .

Life has been swiftly moving forward.
Having no classes on Wednesdays makes it feel like the week is shorter.
I am closely attached to papers and my blue pencil. Not one day goes by without the word 'Trailer'. The enthusiasm is a candle burning in the dark 'till dawn.
And falling sick only reminds me that I'm human too.

Towards the end of the week I guess my body just had enough; it's been screaming 'rest!' ever since i caught the flu more so;
So the last two days I've been able to fall asleep without waking 'till the next day.
Can't describe more; it only paints a picture of an over-done workaholic.
-___-
But the week has been pleasant in some ways. Subtle thrills as I may call them; adding colors to my canvas. It's funny how some things you thought you left far behind can still catch up to you; perhaps something you've let go of.

Have a good weekend, peepz!

C h e e r S !

Criss Cross Rain.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Mon, 10 Sep 2007 15:58:00 +0000

An unfinished feeling...

10.09.07- Unwell and annoyed. Useless cravings of sweet things; I steal a bite of chocolate but taste nothing. The hush-hush excitement burning anxiety. September breezes and freak wind storms. I have so much and yet nothing to say. I want to be filled with that feeling again. It's so far.

This is one of the many unpublished drafts and incomplete post...heck, bon apatite*

. . . . . . . . . .

There stood Will and Desire;
In a world where dreams are made destinations and pleasure unlimited stops;
The thought that is cast out loud belongs to you, belongs to me.

This could go on forever. If only it made sense. Be it one phrase or a whole page. There I stood in all of bleakness. For some I would see colors and the unbent will to be different and stand out from a crowd. For others it is a reality of black and white, for good and evil, for sorrow and joy, for suffering and pain, for happiness at the cost of another's misery. But for one person's thoughts echoing out loud; be you the audience, or be you in my moccasins.
It was unplanned for. But at a moment like this I was not to pass a night out on the road. With company I delighted and the ambiance I sought. The speed started accelerating and being at the back seat somehow I felt fear. The power of unchallenged swift beckons fault. I could only pray that the wheel was still sane. But I could not deny that I too felt the angst of the driver that night. Reaching our desired stop; anticipation and observation. And walking with my guard up and feeling all eyes averted towards the moving crowd of four, each step was taken in poise. It was a moment of blending into the scene and of insecurity. It was a moment of stepping into the third person's watch and judging. It was a moment of seeking temporary certainty. If I were to sit and surround myself with conscious walls I would perhaps say that the atmosphere was superficially disgusting. But to be part of the crowd and assert your own existence whether the world around you is shut or whether you stand on a stage is an opposing stance. To be or not to be?
The beats just filled my veins. But consciousness brings me back like awaking from a dream where you dreamt of waking up but you're only dreaming of waking up; and it goes on and on.

. . . . . . . . . . .

Chipped Polish + Fever.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Sun, 09 Sep 2007 04:22:00 +0000

Golly. I think i've had enough of house music for now; the beats are still ringing in my head. My weekend has been infused with the cold. I caught the flu and was down with a fever yesterday. I felt i wasted most of the day and even then i couldn't be spared with proper rest due to the nightmares about work that need be done! Sheesh. But i felt much better after some herbal tea prior to dinner. And seriously after, I was on a working high -__-" Worked on some drawings 'till 4am....zzzz...
And surprisingly i woke up quite refreshed this morning and ready to tackle on more work! I just finished one assignment a while ago so i was thinking of watching a movie for a break =p

Tee-hee~*

My blogging juice is just at a low drive...but i still felt like spilling some bits.

Cupcake, anyone?

Cherry Blossom Blisters Under Velvet Skies.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Thu, 06 Sep 2007 15:37:00 +0000

Never get wasted on a weekday--especially when there's class in the morning.
I was practically moving on a high throughout the whole day with just one hour of sleep.

Class was interesting today;
Kaifan falling in love at first sight;
Kun-kun telling me that milkshake is milk that you just shake--kau kau -__-;
John trying to be funny;
Nishii playing reverse psychology...;
and me thinking they've all gone insane.

I Love You-ness.

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Tue, 04 Sep 2007 07:02:00 +0000

Listening to: Beautiful World -Coldplay
Feeling: Strange

Now playing: Trouble -Coldplay

The air is humid. It's been raining the past few days. Still, I wake up fresh and dress to embrace the cold. I think i over-use the word 'weird'. I love it secretly for it's the one word i can think of to describe my bubbling euphoria of curiosity and excitement. But note that such events that occur aren't always good; yet the thrill of the unknown and unfamiliar is a beautiful weird thing at an angle. Honestly, it's only a matter of time before i turn to my expressions.

There has been a lot of tiny pleasant moments that we could simply overlook, but i guess part of being neurotic and highly sensitive makes me aware of such things (ha-ha--why couldn't i just say 'being grateful?'). It's just a matter of how you deal with things and how you make of it. There has been frustrations and distance i cannot comprehend. But at some point it seems only fair to suggest balance. Haven't you had days were things were just too good for some time it just felt dull? Well not that i would be complaining; after a lot of drama you would enjoy the stillness. But there is only so much sunshine you could take before you start to burn and wished for drops of cooling rain. Well same goes for the matter the other way around; when life seems bleak and your sole mission is to get by the days just one at a time, a carefree sunny day is only in a prayer.

Personally, it's been weird. An addictive kind of weird. Its like walking side by side with uncertainty for so long it would be peculiar not to have that dose of uncertainty. Just enough to aid the certainties, no? I mean hey, it would be a bit dull if you were certain of everything, no?

There are two things certain in life (apart from death & taxes); uncertainty & change.

Currently my concerns are divided between my work and my social circle . Time, time, time. If i said yes to every single demand that would leave me weary and practically lifeless even through all the 'busyness'. But what i choose to say 'yes' or '' to is another matter. Decide on what's more important--of course, if only it were that easy. What if you had 20 important people in your life and you had to fit each one into your schedule? Maybe if you had unlimited resources...perhaps possible. But there's only so much time, money, and energy that always seem to be an excuse for inconveniences . Lalalala~*

On another page:

'Our movie trailer should be rated-T.'
'T?'
'Yah, teen-rated. T-E-E-N.'
'Oh?'
'T-rated for small violence, small politics, small s**.'

C h e e r S

noreply@blogger.com (aimz) — Mon, 03 Sep 2007 14:28:00 +0000

When rain tastes like vanilla and the sun shines sugar rays

Say Ok is such an emo song right now

It's a crazy high on work; i feel mischievous

I can't believe the last lines i spoke to a friend before...